My Depressive Introduction

Hi steemit,
I understand the first thing to do after having an account is to introduce yourself to others. Here is a short introduction of me.

Good day to everyone here, I am Blue Fish. I understand that I should post my real self and photo here to introduce the real me to all of you, however there is a reason of why I am not going to do that. I am joining steemit mainly to post my feelings that I have been bottling up, feelings that I find it very difficult to tell anyone I know therefore would like to keep my identity as Blue Fish just in case any person I know stumbles upon steemit. One reason I chose steemit is that none of my friends know about this website thus I feel safer to open my bottles here. Please do understand my reason of not posting my real self, I am Blue Fish here, 23 year old Asian Male.

I have acknowledged this little friend of mine that has been living with me for a few years, he's called Depression. In these recent years I have been ignoring this friend of mine and refused to acknowledge his existence, which only makes him grow bigger. I knew that I am suffering from depression from a few years back but whenever I am feeling depressed, I just put it into a bottle and bury it inside me, I have never talked about it with anyone. I have a very nice family that will support me whatever I do and some really good friends that care about me including a girlfriend. As time goes, these bottles keep on increasing more and more to an extent I am finding it very heavy to carry around with me, but I just don't know why, I am unable to open up myself to anyone I know, friends or family. I do feel the urge to seek professional help to a psychologist/psychiatrist but is very unsure about it, therefore I am making this steemit account to pour out my bottles one by one hoping it will reduce the burden in me. I think I can do it if it's with complete stranger from across the world.

Brief introduction here, I will pour out bottles when I am really burdened and need to loosen up a little in future posts. Here is a picture of me. Have a nice day everyone.