Maybe I am in the midst of a midlife crisis!?!

in steemitmamas •  12 days ago

You know that saying, "Don't make those faces, the wind may change and it may stay that way forever"? I wish I took it more seriously than I did then because I have now discovered that yes, the wind does change and yes, your face does, in fact, stay that way.

At 34-years-old, the wind has changed. My face is now different to it's radiant 20's, and starting to show the signs of a life that has most certainly had its fair share of ups and downs.

As I look in the mirror those frown lines are stuck there after years of pulling my mummy face and having 5 children. Let's just say I have made that face more than my own fair share of times.

You know that face you make to your kids when they are misbehaving out in public and you don't want to make an even bigger scene. That face that says everything without you uttering a simple word. That face where your children know that boundaries have been crossed and know they better shape up immediately.

If you don't have children and haven't made "the face" yourself, I am still quite confident you know what I am talking about, and your own mother has even made "the face" to you at one point or another. And no doubt, just like me, the wind changed one day, and now her face is stuck that way too!

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It turns out, you are punished equally for smiling too! Yep, all those moments of life you enjoyed and showed emotion become imprinted in your face forever.

Wrinkles do not discriminate between good and bad emotions we show on our face. They equally distribute themselves and slowly build a roadmap of your life on your face. I feel guilty for judging people with a constant "resting bitch" face, maybe they were just thinking about their future.

It's not just my face that has changed, my body is beginning to change too!

I remember as a child and teen always pretending to be older than I was. I remember just like my daughter be so excited to "finally be a woman", at the time (and to be honest still sometimes even now), having no real idea of what being a "real woman" actually is.

I could wait to adult and do all things adults do....now, I just wanna go back to my youth.

To be fair, my body has been pretty kind to me. After 5 children I was left with only a handful of small stretch marks on my breasts. My breasts themselves got a beating and with each child, I decreased a cup size each time and weighing in 55kg now, I have been left with something I can only describe as ribs and nipples and even those little nipples are beginning to wanna check out what is happening near my feet instead of what's happening in front of them.

All in all, my body survived many times over being the creator in the creation of life. I should feel thankful right?!? But I still cannot shake this loathing for my body changes and aging.

Getting older for me is almost like being an awkward teenager going through puberty.


One morning I woke up and went to put my face on for work and noticed a strange, foreign hair that has popped up on my chin. I inspected it for a moment and quickly plucked it away and questioned how many people had seen this and envisioned myself as the grandmas with the big long grey hairs dangling from her chin and wondered when I too would no longer care about it and just let it do its thing......it is natural after all, right?

When I was last tweezing my eyebrows the signs of aging were there too! While trying to thin them out a little and keep the perfect shape, there it was....standing there in the middle of my eyebrow as erect as my husband's manhood in the morning....... a big, giant, coarse grey hair.

I quickly plucked away the evidence that this aging thing was happening. Then another and another...wtf are they blonde or grey? After all, I am blonde! Maybe, let me........pluck, pluck, pluck...shit, I best stop.... Those greys are there in force and if I keep going I may be left with little to none and guess what, those stubborn bastards just keep on coming back!

I feel like I spent my whole twenties trying to find myself and now in my mid-thirties wanting to be back to my twenties that "had it all".

I gave myself and my body too much of a bad wrap back then and now I look back, I was fucking fabulous, it's just a shame I didn't see it then like I do now.

Reminds me of "The suncreen song".

I'm not afraid of my body she still goes o.k, for now!

But I am afraid of the new things that I have no control over that it is doing and what is ahead for it.

I have been thinking about how I am aging so much, I even almost convinced mysself I am suffering from the onset if menopause.

That would explain why I am feeling hot flushes and having erratic emotions at times....which after a quick google search found out I am at least 10-15 years away from.... so it turns out I am just a cranky, hot mess!

But just like the lyrics in the song say, the race is long but in the end, it is only with yourself.

Nobody else in the world cares about this aging effect I'm having. Not even my husband or family, just me and I know nobody probably will, because it's the natural course of life, you get older and your body changes.

Well, not for people who unlike me, can afford cosmetic alterations to their body. (Although who knows, this post may just be the game changer and I may just be able to get myself a new set of boobs and wrinkle-free face after all lol.)

I know in the big scheme of life this all means nothing and these superficial things don't really matter. But even so, they are giving my confidence a slow, brutal beating.

I don't like what is happening nor am I excited to continue to age. I really think I am going through a midlife crisis!

I am trying to remind myself to be kind to me and to know that just like before there will come a time where I will look back on photos of myself at this exact stage of my life right now, and wish I could step right back in these shoes and not to waste it away instead of enjoying the moment it is.

Please tell me I am not the only person that feels like this? I know it is common for men to feel the effects of aging but what about you ladies? How did/do you feel about getting older?



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youkilled it the blog ROCKS but left me asking my husband about my laughing 44 year old face LOL

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LOL! Glad you enjoyed @brittandjosie <3 Hopefully he gave all the right answers like @bigtom mentioned above lol.

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Btw are you ever gonna come back to Australia? Hehee

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I don't think so. The idea of returning is almost as scary as leaving in the first place. We may pop ini for a visit sometime in the new future though!

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Aww how long ago did you leave? Culture shock?

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Almost 7 years ago, but feels like yesterday. Went back for work last Feb and it was a whole different world. I like living in the dark ages lol

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Haha wow sounds like Cambodia is more rural hehe..
But dick soup man.. hahaha even I’ve never heard or eaten it (I think 🤔)

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32 over here, and yep, the crows feet are getting comfortable. I freaked out when I realized I had several grey hairs earlier this year. Then I decided to focus on the wisdom. Man am I wiser over the last ten years.

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Hmmmm, I guess wisdom is pretty awesome, and boy am I a heap wiser too!!

I remember when I first started to notice that I had a little less hair then I previously saw looking in the mirror. Unfortunately, that started early in life. I think I was 26 when I first thought about where my hair was going. I knew I was doomed if genetics had anything to do with it but hoped I would get a good 30 plus years first. Ultimately, the recession increased and I had to embrace my new head. That is when I started cutting my hair down to a number 1 or 2 on the clippers and I have never looked back. Age can look good on us. We are like a fine wine. Aged just right.

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My uncle told me as a kid... "Don't be so excited to have a beard. You'll loose all this (ran his hand through what was left on his head) and you'll have hair all over your back"
At the time I thought nothing of it, as I started to age it suddenly popped back into my head and gave me a chuckle.

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But your face still looks like a baby <3 The body is an amazing thing huh, and no two are alike!! @phillippekiene's got his father's side genetics... he still can't grow a beard but is slowly losing hair.

You are absolutely right!! You will get to 50 and go asks!!! 34 was good haha
It's ok, give it it's energy, then kick it to the curb and be the awesome You!!
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Youre right! I am working on it <3 *hugs xoxoxo

I think it's normal to think like that, I had a period of panic attack during my 30's, but after you pass 40's, that another story...

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I am not going to ever be 40 lol. I have now decided to stop celebrating my birthday hahaha.

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Hahahaha... that's hilariously understandable!!!!

You know that question you women ask about the pants? You know the one. "Do these pants make my ass look fat?" There is no answer that can keep the male of the species from going right to the top of the list at home. None. Believe me, I've tried all possible answers and permutations thereof, None works. Even slightly. When you hear the question you KNOW it's one week worth of the look, no matter what. Might just as well say yes and be done.

Consider this. You just asked a variation of the same question.

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hahaha, I love this! At least you know who is always right I guess, so no need to second guess yourself! lol. image.png

Man don’t remind me.. I have so many wrinkles, freckles and smile lines.. and people keep saying I look young... they just don’t see how much I’ve aged haha...😪

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Maybe we should have just kept a resting bitch face our whole life? Come on science...do your thang!!

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😂😂😂 I can’t help having heart on my sleeve most days hehe

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I hear you, sister <3

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I scrunch up my nose so often I’m gonna get some serious wrinkles there 😫😫

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Nose wrinkles are pretty cute though!

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Hahaha thanks, whereas I’m thinking old lady nose wrinkles =p

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you get older and your body changes

It does. And how did you manage to lose cup size? It seems like I gain more for each baby since I've been breastfeeding these boobie bandits.

Wrinkles don't choose mama. For me, I'm getting a bunch of skin tags!

I just stopped celebrating my birthday...

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  • monsters must have sucked me dry lol...
  • Ohhh I am sure the skin tags are not far away!
  • I have just decided birthdays are overrated too lol, I shall stay 34 forever!

You are just too darn cute and crack me up! You are definitely not the only one! Although I still feel young and still feel like I’m in my 20’s the numbers don’t lie! I’ll be 40 in just three years and that gets me panicking. I don’t want to get old or keep aging but there’s no stopping it. I used to think people my age were old and here I am 37 and my kids call me old Lol!!

We get more mature and beautified the older we get...at least that’s what keeps me motivated lol!! The signs of aging are hard to miss. 😞 I ask myself all the time...

when did I get this age? I don’t remember time going by...

LOL! At 31 I noticed the random chin hair, the first gray hairs, the first 'forever there' rimpels... And I don't even have children! :D It's funny right - we spend our lives critiquing our bodies, while we are probably never as beautiful again as today... (Don't know if that helps :'))

Lolol your post hits right back at home! You took 5 babies to feel this way and I only took 2!! I've been telling my hubs the same thing ever so often this year, that I have felt my body age faster then it should. I wonder what would happen to my body once I stop breastfeeding lol I can't imagine. But as long as I am not dragging them girlies on the floor I think we're good. I found out that I have a spot on my head that constantly sprouts grey hair no matter how many times I've plucked them away. They're not even on the sidelines, it's like a spot of cray pot in the middle of a garden. I might as well make use of that spot and dye them crazy colors haha okay I better go grab some ice cream now. Save me some of that sweet wine will ya 🍷

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ah ha ha ha ha ha..... ahem... sorry. Where are my manners?
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Girl, you are only 35, and this is the time where no doubt you are experiencing something more than just grey sprouts (like cracking knees) but hey, this is where you are cruising towards how you determine yourself in the next 5 years.

Because, young lady, wait until you hit the 40s THEN probably you might get yourself hit with mid life crisis.

I used to dye my hair (I think I might still) but now I start to wear my grey with pride. Imagine, this is natural "highlights" with no extra charge. Some might turn out much better than one thinks.

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ps: I would have thought that your hubby would take your cup size as a challenge to rectify it, if you know what I mean. I read somewhere that proper massages do help. :p

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