yes, i know this feeling! my man @sean-king has been encouraging me to become active on steemit. "come on, it's great!", he says.... but now i join and try and see that it is like anything else and takes commitment and work and dedication. keep posting and trying. for me the benefit is in the writing and figuring myself and my issues out. maybe sharing that stuff will pay off monetarily, or maybe it won't. i'm learning either way.