Dear Diary: Tomorrow is Another Day with the Doctor and I am Not Coming

Hopefully and God-willing that tomorrow (about 12 hours from this writing) that my mother dear and my very kind doctor (She might win in every kindness battle there is) will finally meet again to tell me/us what are her plans for my treatment after my mother submit to her the Calcium test that she requested for me to accomplish and so I did today and it is quite a chapter in my battle against this bone problem that I am suffering from.

Without this bone condition Iam actually okay and it was evidenced by my latest test results which seems that I am resistant to virus attacks for I never had a flu or cold as I can remember even during my dialysis years. Vitamin C is my protector against colds and flu and Hepatitis. I am positive for Hep B for more than 20 years now but test results shows that there are no elevations on my liver enzymes that will indicate that my liver is failing and they are not.

I think I won the battle on flu, colds, and Hep B virus so I need a medal for that. My Cholesterol level is low and the lipids are also low or normal but with the usual elevations for waste products typical for dialysis patients which cause no alarm though. Even my Calcium level is quite ok but not the latest Calcium ((Ionized) test which I believe is low.

I am okay with dialysis, being a dialysis patient, but not with a bone problem as it gives me pain and disability to do normal people does plus the face-to-face socializing to friends and the public. Although I could say that I don't or wouldn't care what other people think or say about my appearance but I am still human and have feelings and it hurts me to realize that I am not normal anymore and to realize which I had proven to myself that most people are racist and the ones that are not are the gems in this world.

I am no longer needed to go with my mother to the clinic for tomorrow. The doctor just needs my test results then she would tell my mother what I need and that's just about what I expect. So my hope is still up and I am racing with my bone condition especially on my face which I hope to stop, otherwise I will lose my vision.

I also hope that my steemian friends will continue to fight with me against this unrelenting medical foe that nobody wants and most people doesn't understand but only a few. God help me and God bless #steemit friends and community.