Dear Diary: How Does It Feels Like Having A Mouth Wide Open All The Time

A mouth wide open all the time is one of the problem that I am facing even when I am sleeping and I am at the mercy of some creature who would try to sneak in my mouth whilst I am snoozing. Luckily for me it hasn't happened yet so far but seriously I am just saddened about my appearance not really because of my appearance mainly but because of my disability to eat in a proper way as food just falls out from my mouth when I chew.

To see me or myself eating is really not a good sight to see. Only my parents I believe are able to tolerate such pitiful condition. My dialysis nurses when I eat just moves away, some even make a hidden expressions, while other patients look and stare like that of a meme of a koala with some food in its mouth.

I myself when I eat during dialysis, cover my mouth. During the first months of my disfigurement, I was making eating noises as I try to suck in the food that is nearly falling from y mouth until in the following months and now I have to lay down flat in order to not spill my food out.

When I am relaxed I feel as if nothing is wrong with my mouth until I see myself from the mirror or touch my mouth, then the reality sets in. That is why I am trying to help myself seek a cure with the help of medical doctors because it is not only my mouth is the problem but the whole system of my body via the overactive gland in my neck.

I just need the prayers of everybody so I can survive this medical anomaly. It is hard and it is ugly not only for me but for people around me. I am looking forward for a good result for me taking a medicine that aims to suppress my parathyroid and I think it is working and as the days go by it can manifest more of its work through how I regain my strength and maybe someday I can walk without much effort. God help me and God bless the steemit community.