This is my December song

in poetry •  11 months ago

Nothing is more frustrating than knowing the darkness is quicksand.
I do everything I can to avoid it but it's always there.
And no matter how hard I try to stay on the lit path
I fall in.

The more I struggle, the faster the dark place swallows me whole.
The world stops but time keeps moving forward.
Finally, when I begin to emerge I have to wonder where the hell I've been and what was I doing with myself?
I feel so weak which is why...

This is my December song.

It repeats every year and it's only gotten worse since my father died.
So, I dedicate this poem to him.
I kind of imagine it to be song lyrics but a melody escapes me so if anyone wants to collaborate just let me know.
Anyway...

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It’s so hard to let you go
I wonder if you’d like to know
That my world is forever changed
It’s a little darker now

Standing at a mirror and I won’t look in her eyes
Body achin’, soul forsaken, and the sun won’t pierce the pain around her heart.

A remembered sound or a scent
I’m twisted and a little bent
‘Cause my world is forever changed
It’s a little colder now

Standing at a mirror and I won’t look in her eyes
Body achin’, soul forsaken, and the sun won’t pierce the sadness in her mind.

I look whole but I’m broken
The pain is unspoken
You’re gone and I’m forever changed
I’m a little lesser now

Standing at a mirror and I won’t look in her eyes
Body achin’, soul forsaken, and the sun won’t pierce the shadow of this void.

© 2017 Meredith Loughran All Rights Reserved

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Beautiful lyrics!

Whatever troubles you, my friend, only you can overcome it. No amount of words from anyone else will do the job. You need to find the strength that you know is inside you and remember who you are. Only by suffering the sadness of life can we appreciate it's beauty. I really hope you find your true self again soon Meredith and that this coming New Year can be the start of a brighter future for us all. We need you back when you are able. You are in my thoughts, my friend. x

there are links like those of parents and children that even death can not separate them, only those who have gone through this understand, that unlike all the things that when time passes is forgotten, these links and memories are stronger , every time they hurt and remember more.
Sad and beautiful poetry at the same time, you are admirable as you write.
The words are more sweet and cinceras when they leave the heart.
I wish with all my heart this new year to come to your home and yours full of peace, happiness and prosperity.
A big hug dear friend @ merej99

excellent poem ! congrats my friend

I can relate my story to yours as my Father is gone to another world too. And i would love to dedicate this poem to my Father too
( Hope so you won't mind it )

So, I dedicate this poem to him. :'( :'(

Thanks for sharing this beautiful poetry which covers my all unspoken pain.

To Every Father who has gone to Heavens

We miss you so much :(

No doubt Poetry is a Pray and you're doing the best at your level @mere99 <3

Keep sharing such worth reading Poetry with us.

Nice song
I wish your all wishes are fulfilled this year may you and your family like long

WOW! You are really a good writer. Amazing poet. Thanks for share

wonderful poetry, i glad to sew this poetry. thanks

So beautiful and he will always be remembered by this great song. Wishing you all the best @merej99!

nice poetry @merej99 only those people understand you pain & grief who lost their loved ones. Death is the ultimate reality of this world. Every thing in this world is mortal. All we can do now is just associate our self with good deeds and pray for our loves one. wishing you a peaceful and healthy year.

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Thank you so much for the kind words @kamochore
Death is a given and I become more aware of my own mortality with every passing year. As I often tell my kids: live with no regrets, don't die doing something stupid, and try your best in all that you do because it's the stories from the people who knew us which make us live on.
Here's to health, happiness and prosperity in the new year :)

Beautiful @merej99... Sounds like he is still with you to me -- :))

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Thanks, @macksby. He is with me every day. Some days/weeks are better than others with the coping. :)
May the new year bring joy and bounty.

Such a wonderful poetry you posting for us, i am new steemit user ,can you give some tips for my success? Happy new year my friend.

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Hello @eselina and welcome to Steemit!
I wrote this over a year ago: The Steemit Newbie's Comprehensive Guide to Understanding Your Wallet
At the bottom of the post are links to other articles for best practices that I've written but there are tons of guides and helpful people throughout Steemit too. Don't be afraid to holler if you need help. Best wishes and have an awesome New Year.

Beauty from pain. No one can ever replace those we have lost, there is always a void, and some voids are huge.

Can't reach out a hand to help lift you from the quicksand, but wishing you the best anyway.

poetry is emotion put into words - it's a different kind of knowing because it comes from the heart and not the head. This was real, mere

I'm praying you and your loved ones have a peaceful and blessed New Year

There you are. I see where you've been now. That black place that has no name but every name to all who've been there.

The more I struggle, the faster the dark place swallows me whole.
The world stops but time keeps moving forward.
Finally, when I begin to emerge I have to wonder where the hell I've been and what was I doing with myself?
I feel so weak which is why...

I'm sure you won't be surprised at how many know where of you speak.

Hi, Mere,

I'm sorry for your pain...

Hugs!

😄😇😄

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