Love and Pain...and Cancer
For those of you who don't know, my husband (@briancourteau), the love of my life, has cancer. We've been through treatment together, to no avail, and so we decided to make the move from Vancouver, Canada to Playa del Carmen to live out our days together. We don't know how much time we have, but we do know that we are desperately trying to enjoy every minute of it.
Our amigo, @deancarter introduced us to steemit in December and it has helped so much to suddenly have this amazing community of people at our fingertips. Without knowing, we have each blogged about the healthy positive influence it's had on us (https://steemit.com/steemit/@briancourteau/meeting-great-people-on-steemit AND https://steemit.com/steemit/@lynncoyle1/steemit-as-a-society-rocks)
Brian writes poetry and I introduced @johnjgeddes' work to him and together they developed this really cool relationship. John actually dedicated a poem to us...made me cry! (https://steemit.com/poetry/@johnjgeddes/how-i-see-you). Oddly enough, we all discovered our mutual love and respect for ravens! Who knew?? Through that, we met @creatr, a friend of Johns and he gave us this link https://www.cancertutor.com/start-here/ which has been very informative and helpful.
So again, I need to express my profound thanks to steemit and the wonderful folks who 'live' in this amazing society!
There are times however, when Brian's pain is almost too difficult to bear; it's as if the pain takes over and he becomes lost in it. This morning was one of those times.....I wrote him this poem..
Pain and Love
To My Love,
The pain drags you further and further away from YOU
And me
Please, please, please follow the bread crumb trail of memories
It will guide you back to YOU
You’ll pass a smiling girl standing by her car outside of a Yaletown penthouse,
Waiting for her love to find her
Chocolates in Edmonton
Family in Ontario
Road trips to California and a tree of shoes where our love is memorialized
Route 66 where only we existed
Las Vegas and a snake wrapped around that smiling girl’s neck
New Orleans, Mississippi, and beyond
If you lose your way just look up and the ravens will guide you
They have been with us this entire journey
At the end you will find YOU,
And me, patiently waiting
And smiling
Until then, the ravens will be here, watching over me like family
And together we will hold vigil,
Awaiting your return.
Cheers!
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Stay strong !!
Wow, thank you so much! We both appreciate your kindness:)
this is such a touching poem, Lynn, written from the heart as all good poems are. I love your attitude of living day by day. it seems to me the golden way. There's a Navajo saying that consoles me in my own life - There's a way out of every dark mist, over a rainbow trail. It's not a panacea, but it is a way of looking at life and trying to find that lighted path. You guys are golden.
Thank you so much John; day by day is all we can do. I love that Navajo saying...it will bring me peace when I need it. You are golden too my friend (you made me think of, "stay gold Ponyboy":) Thank you again.
Ah, The Outsiders - I taught that a few times:)
hahaha i figured...the Grade 8 curse! :)
I’m so sorry to hear the pain you guys are going through!! I will pray for you both! The poem is beautiful!!!
Thank you so much...I'll take all the prayers I can get!! And thank you for your kind words re: my poem; really appreciate that too! (btw, Gina notified me over in discord that you commented here haha)
I didn't know that was happening. I'm so sorry to hear that! Words seem cheap in response to what you're going through, so I'll just say that I hope Mexico is awesome!
aww thank you so much; just so you know, any words are far from 'cheap'...i really appreciate your kindness!! And yes, there are many worse places to be than Mexico:) Thanks again. Cheers!
Hi @lynncoyle1, we have chatted a bit on the steemitbloggers chat over at discord. Didn't know though what you and your husband were going through. Stay strong!
And your poems is beautiful. It brought tears to my eyes, just knowing what your inspiration was, it was really touching.
Thank you so much!! And yes, with a name like @thepaperplane, I totally remember you:) What you said about my poem is very kind indeed; it's words like yours that add to my inspiration...so thank you again!
I am so sorry to hear that. Your words touch my heart. Hope you guys have beautiful and amazing time ahead waiting for you. Please stay strong :)Sending love to both of you <3
Thank you so much for your very kind words! I appreciate all the love and support you can send <3
Hi Lynn, I am sorry about Brian's condition.
Forgive my curiosity but I assume in such a situation you must be open to all sorts of input that could lead to improvements in Brian's health?
May I ask how his status is and if you guys adjusted your diets in order to starve the cancer? Are you eating loads of garlic, taking cannabis oils, taking methadon?
Best wishes!
Hi there! Thank you so much for your comments and concern :) Yes we have changed up our diets, loads of garlic and cannabis oil (which has helped the tumours in his mouth and seizures tremendously! Methadon..no to that one? Thank you again for your input...all is welcome!
I live in Frankfurt am Main / Germany and a Doctor here got shutdown after discovering that Methadon is a way cheaper and more effective way to survive cancer. I have no further info on what has happened to her work since then but I remember among local independent media sources that it was considered a freak discovery with a threat to pharma's profits.
http://www.dw.com/en/fighting-cancer-with-methadone-making-chemotherapy-more-powerful/a-19482264
thank you so much for that...I'm going to look at the link you sent now. I would totally upvote you for this, but I've depleted my voting power today and I don't want the dreaded "bandwidth" message!! Of course pharma's not happy with something like that...there is too much money in remaining sick :( Thank you again!
OK I am sobbing now as i write this. Your post is so touching! My thoughts and prayers are with you and Brian! I will send you two positive healing energy every day! Hugs!
awww you're a good guy!! I really really really appreciate your comments, thoughts, prayers, healing energy...all of it!! I will take whatever you have to give :) Someone said this to me today and I'm passing it on to you now...internet hugs (because I certainly did not want to make you cry ;)
I'm sorry to hear about your situation and the reason behind your relocation Lynn. I hope the change in environment and new life will offer you guys a better and more comfortable lifestyle, creating lots of beautiful moments that you will all keep with you where ever you may be in the future.
Thank you so much for that! I really appreciate the support. It is certainly more comfortable here compared to the rainy and cold Vancouver winter! I guess with age and circumstance we understand that "beautiful moments" are just about anything now ;) Thank you again!!
Thank you Baby for putting up with the bad days. I love you.
Aww thank you baby...I love you more :) xo
Maybe all the positive energy on steemit will help you!!