I was sent to hell

Yeah this is what worries me. Bad trips!

I have to admit I have never been to hell. I keep intending the experience but, I keep getting told that I don't need it

You are some masochist you!

It's hard, our language is so limiting that it becomes difficult to explain these understandings and feelings. Because they are pre-language they can not be defined by language. We continue to attempt as best we can. But it can't replicate or replace the experience.

I'm having this problem even without LSD!

Ho?oponopono which teaches as we heal our own wounds

It's interesting that the word (verb) "pono" (πονώ) in Greek means "I'm in pain". Just thought to mention that!

[I've found for me], altruism comes naturally in an environment of abundance. Our culture creates scarcity (wholly artificial) which is why altruism is near non existent in our society.

Interesting. It's quite true that scarcity is manufactured. There really is no such thing. There's plenty for everyone. But the hoarders won't let it be that way.

What I gather from all this, is that despite D's 'awakened' status, the way he expresses himself doesn't really sound all that different from anyone. I can sometimes see narcissism in his words, I can sometimes see the need to share his knowledge, I can hear him using words such as 'the herd'. And so on. Really not all that different from me or anyone. Buddhists at least live differently, they resign earthly possessions etc. Nor have I read anything profound in his words. I mean, I'm assuming Shakespeare for instance never took drugs. But he said some pretty profound things! Other LSD writers, such as Terence Mckenna whom I've mentioned, or Aldous Huxley, said some profound and interesting things. So, it seems to me, no matter how deep your LSD experience, at the end of the day we're back to the real world, where inequality rules. Some people are just better writers, thinkers, whatever. That's the thing that causes the most strife in people I think, the realization that other people might be better (smarter, more beautiful, better in bed, whatever). When people take LSD and feel like they're part of everything, that's mainly the thing that goes away: comparing themselves to others, or individuality. That's why they feel, temporarily, better.

Unless it's a bad trip!

But you went on to mention all that, that he should stop trying to be a teacher and become a facilitator etc. But it was interesting that you said the best way to do that is through selfishness. I'm not so sure about that. I have a friend who says the same and we've talked about this at length. But I don't really know. I guess I would like to know how that translates in practice in order to be able to form a judgement.