How Am I Preparing for a Possible No Go for a Surgery

I have been doing everything right from the start to get as healthy as I can to be able to at one point to get a transplant. That is why I endured a lot of time being anemic and having a poor appetite as a result as well as having a far much less ability to sleep and not gaining any weight if not losing some just to avoid getting a blood transfusion because getting blood transfusions before a transplant will get me problems after.

That is how far I had gotten for a hope for a transplant that never came. But I kept on taking good care of myself and thus my longevity. You can also look at my skin and it is not as dark like with other patients like me. I attribute it into taking vitamin C because the vitamin protects the cells of the body from damage caused by oxidation so in turn, it makes the skin resistant to damage caused by sun exposure. So if my skin got darker because it got exposed to the sun, it quickly recovers.

I also had avoided much of the bad foods like those with saturated fats, mainly processed foods. But I only had some in moderation. But even though I had been doing a good diet, it just seemed that I was binge eating the foods that are prohibited to me like the foods with high phosphorus content. Due to the quality of dialysis that I am getting which is mediocre, it made my system get overloaded with that particular substance and thus caused an imbalance that resulted in what you see today.

I tried to manage my health but in turn due to a lot of mismanagement on the medical part which I have no control of, it gave me a sea of complications. The complications now gives me some omen of bad things that may come to my hearing that I might not even get to lay down on the operating room especially when my friend @girlbeforemirror told my case to a medical professional, I just sensed that I have to prepare for surgical no go news.

So how will I prepare myself? The answer to that is I don't know. I just want the sleep fairy to come to me and lay me down to sleep for everything after that is so unbearable for me. I might continue to steemit just to take my mind off things. Maybe until my blindness sets in. But if I could sign something just to take a risk getting on the operating table I will. I will do it.