Penned bullshit ~All too often

in pennedbullshit •  2 months ago 


Not often enough,

do I lose my shit, but not so much that I lose my shit. I tend to be angry but fully in control. I am spontaneously deliberate and don't give a fuck...

I lose my train of thought the moment I see the schedule and create a schedule for things without any thought. I move forward while looking sideways and go sideways with an eye on my back. The future is uncertain...

Simple things confuse me, and supposed complex things I find amusing. I am the dumbest smart person I know and I don't know what I am supposed to know. Given that once I do know something it was probably not the right god damn thing...

I don't believe but have faith. I hope constantly with ferocity, small miracles passing by hourly. The coffee is ready and it is time for a smoke break. I need to use the word rake now since that rhymes with break and this train is coming in but was never scheduled...

I killed my smoke, so I can type faster. The words I write tend to end in disaster, not the kind you see but more mental like aunty kitty and her menthol. Simple little concepts bind into ideas with implementations only to find you have no relation to what is being discussed and sip your beer, sneer and laugh a bit queer.

I would like to interrupt your scheduled unscheduled programming with some tactical misdirection that might indicate some intention.

I won't change, I will only refine. I am convinced I am not the one misaligned. The rest seem fucking crazy and most of it I find hazy.

Insincerely I listen to them sincerely explaining their position only to realise that every word is coming from someone I could learn to despise. Is it the words or the person? The things that surround me or this thing crawling inside.

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Good shit man. I especially like two phrases/lines -

I hope constantly with ferocity, small miracles passing by hourly.


I would like to interrupt your scheduled unscheduled programming with some tactical misdirection that might indicate some intention.

This going to be a song or just 'pennedbullshit'?


Thanx man, nah, I think what rests best with my silly little moods is penned bullshit ;) You may use as you wish though.


I liked those lines too!!! Fits my mood right now

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Now, this's a great way to start my day!



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Nice work! It's got some good rhythm going on. I wonder if you got pissed at something or someone right before you went for your smoke break, to write it?


Lol, yeah was a mixture from a reply and other things. Arrogance sums it up.


I forgot to mention I like the video. It seems you played a different video by him, (or is it a group), recently. Or am I just imagining that? But I remember I liked that one too, and I think it's the same guy or group.

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Are you a genius?

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Far from :) Is this a hint at having to do those positive affirmations in the mirror? Because the dude in my mirror is very mean. I don't think he will go for it.


I thought that piece were some genius song lyrics then I looked up the song which was good and it turns out it was you all along. Demmmmm. I think I'm a smart dumb person myself which is a downgrade from a dumb smart person. So dumb that I am unable to drop any hints.

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I actually reviewed that line and the part about complex things and thought do I follow that or just say some shit. So I said some shit.

You are definitely in the dumb smart person category, you would not want to be a smart dumb person even on their best day :)

Thank you for the compliment... I don't know how to take those, obviously lol.