Fuck You I Won't Do What You Tell Me

in nsfw •  17 days ago


Since I was 14, I have been shooting my naked body. (Though I lost them in the old hard drive) Those precious art were all hidden from people's eyes. I was an insecure kid growing up that those photographs became an outlet to address my personal issue.

Years passed by and my mind slowly opened with new ideas, opinions, and principles. I slowly gained confidence in my art and in my life in general. Hence, I was able to share some of my art to everyone's eyes.

Living in a country where conservative and narrow-minded people live, I would understand some attention coming from people in different fields. Most aren't used to the idea that the human body is a normal thing and that we all have that, and you shouldn't be shamed for doing art which involves an undressed human body.

But some bunch of motherfuckers decided to question my morality just because I shoot the naked female body. What's puzzling me is that they were my colleagues - Yep, they were "fine artists" as well. We painted tits and ass together during our college days and none of them became an issue. Of course, I expect those "fine artists" to be the first to have an open mind with regards to nudity. But guess I was wrong.


"What happened to her?"

Uhh, excuse me dumbass, but I just got confident and I improved with my art-making. What seems to be the problem?



"I'm just concerned about her."

Concerned about what? That these photos will be sexualized by some strangers? I honestly don't give a fuck because that isn't my problem anymore. The purpose of these photographs are obviously not to be sexualized and if a person cannot comprehend with that then that isn't my problem.

You want to protect me by not sharing my art? I don't need your concern. I don't need your imaginary blade because I have my own.

Concerned?

Or

Just jealous because none of you got the balls to do it?
Jealous because I became more confident and happy AFTER a breakup?
Jealous because I improved in my art and as a person without your help?
Jealous because I might attract smart, open-minded, and better guys to replace you?

I'm so fed up with you trying to manipulate my image just because I broke up with you for not appreciating me enough.

Fine.

Of course, you can critic all my art as you please. But, you can never critic my morality just because of a photograph depicting nudity.

Yeah.

Go ahead.
Make rules in the schools and office, make and implement the law, whatever. I will follow and do things accordingly as I am a person with strong convictions.


But when it comes to my art...

Nobody can box me from my creativity. You cannot tell me what to do and not do with my art. I am free with whatever the hell I want to express with my art and I will hold on to that freedom until my body decays.

I bow down to no one.



Here's another nude to disappoint you even more!


Unconcealed.jpg


'Unconcealed'
Self Portrait
2019

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It's so sad to hear how much you struggle with your art. Your portrait is beautiful and it doesn't show anything what should be hidden. Human body is so normal and as we said we all have it so why would you be punished for going your way and expressing you art this way?

But I like that you're strong and confident and you can fight them! :) You're stronger than they are and I hope that they will never bring you down.

Stay strong and don't stop creating :)

Thank you for sharing!

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Well, you can't spell painting without PAIN. LOL. I do love that I am struggling though. It makes me want to work more to improve my art. We learn a lot through struggles.

Those criticisms made me so fragile before.. but once I started believing in myself, I realized my strength and my weaknesses.. my abilities and skills.. so it doesn't affect me much. This time I needed to rant because I was hurt, because they were my friends who were supposed to know me.. so yah. It is very important for us to know our ground. Thank you!

Wow - that's a seriously gorgeous photo! Love the light and big shadow on the right of your body, and how it has a serious 'painterly' feeling.

Gosh, don't let anyone box you in. Seriously, I live for art and I need to see at least one beautiful thing a day, and for today (it's after midnight here) this was it.

Cheers.

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Thank you so much for your kind words! Glad I was able to make your day/night or something. :D

Humans are sexual beings. Doesn't matter if you're nude or not, someone will "sexualize" you. Humans, as all mammals, reproduce sexually. We are driven by our sexual desires. They sometimes almost seem to control us and make us act like utter fools. But nudity doesn't inherently have any sexuality to it beyond the fact that we are sexual creatures. The only reason it does is that society censors us from exposure to the natural form, so many develop a Pavlovian response to it, and even mentally associate it with sex. But we are born naked. We shower naked. If we can get away with it, we might just swim naked, or walk around the house naked...or maybe just in underwear. Is there anything sexual about an old man walking around the house eating a can of beans in boxers? No. But, make it a hot 20 something girl and suddenly...

It takes years to deprogram yourself from society though. Many never do.

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I totally agree!

But we are born naked. We shower naked.

Also what I have been saying to the religious conservatives who would want to shame people who are into nudity art or whatever. Tits and ass shouldn't offend anybody. People in this country are slowly getting used to that idea though...

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They are as Adam and Eve, in the garden of Eden. They have sinned, and eaten of the forbidden fruit, shaming you for your innocence as they don their clothes of fig leaves.

Life is brutally beautiful. May be the criticism helped you to be more refined in your expression. It helped me as well to be more concentrated in the direction of my heart.

And, I love the portrait. Well done. There's so much to see in that eye in the light.

Keep creating :)

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I agree! These constructive, as well as destructive criticisms, made me a better person. Glad to hear it did well on you too! Thank you.

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Very nicely said! This photo is gorgeous and feels like an oil painting, I’m extremely impressed. Don’t let them put you in a box, be you and just sing rage against the machine to anyone who tries to say otherwise.

You are a badass, don’t forget that. 😉

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Wow, thanks! I don't need to paint to have that oil painting vibe then? :thinking: LOL
True! I won't let them no matter who they are. And I love RATM! Thanks for always giving me the encouraging words, LLcharms :P

I want to say that those people who criticize you for your art and your expression of creativity in the nude style are just weak people and do not know the value of the word nature! These upstarts will not break you, but will only make you stronger and more confident. I know that you are a strong person, that you have a harrakter and creative thinking and this is great, this is you, you are real! And all these critics are just pathetic imitations that envy you. We are created by nature, and we should not be shy. Take for example the famous sculptures that are all over the world, where nude female and male bodies express freedom, make it clear to a person that you need to open up to this world, to show yourself as you are, not to hide in a box so that nobody pokes a finger at you.

I know that you are a strong person and morally prepared for any attacks from critics, you are beautiful, you are charming and delightful. Keep doing your favorite thing and do not pay attention to everyone who says that this is shameful or bad.

Regards to you and your creativity.

Saddy.

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Yeah, I know I could handle critics well and take it professionally.. But it just really sucks when those criticisms come from the people who you consider "friends". We have been together for 5 years and they decided to set those aside and judge your whole morality with a single photo.

Thank you for your words and compliments, Pavel! Everything you said makes sense! These should apply to yourself, too. You are talented and beautiful person as well. Continue inspiring people!

I love the way your images fade into the shadows. Can I ask why the scribbles over the images? Is this a form of self censorship or is there another meaning.
As for the people who criticise, f@#k them. You do you.

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Thank you! For the scribbles, I just put them because I have the love for connecting the traditional way to digital way of making art. Photography is digital - those scribbles are digital as well - but I like to think they are some sort of painting them over the photo as if the photos were printed. I have some photos where I paint in a paper, scan them, and edit them over the photo to achieve the effect. Like this one:

Other reason is it could have another specific concept but it depends on the work itself. Thank you for the interest! You are right, I should never be affected by them. It just hurts that these people were my friends and they should be the ones who know me better.

Personally, I find the tag #nsfw cringeworthy when used for art and artistic photography. You get lumped in with pornography, and this is beautiful and not the least bit pornographic.
........"not safe for work" - strange definition, it is certainly safe for where I work. It all depends where one works, perhaps. If one is working for a Saudi-Arabian Kindergarten, then perhaps - in which case you would be required to put at least a paper bag over your head. I am being facetious. Thinking about how Rome had to cover up statues for the Iranian president's visit.
But I know where you come from. I lived for decades in the Canadian bible belt, no less bigoted and ultra-conservative than their American counterparts.

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Yeah that makes sense. I know the people in the platform are open-minded when it comes to these, but I also thought not everyone in their workplace has the same minds as them. Just a little bit of a warning won't hurt anyway. If they want they could always adjust the settings to show even NSFW thumbnails

A very corageous attitude. I celebrate beauty and I celebrate art. Your work celebrates both.
Lots of successs

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Thank you for celebrating them with me!

That is the same problem with me. People in our part of the world still live in a conservative mentality and they always judge. I am living in Europe and I feel I am freer than ever. Maybe if i would live there I would have the same mentality. Freedom in thinking is a very hard thing to achieve. I am no artist but nude does attract me. It is special and that's why painter like Renoir painted nude as well. Excellent photograph and love the lighting.

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Freedom in thinking is a very hard thing to achieve

This is so true. Education background doesn't matter with this one in my opinion. I have seen smart, topnotchers, even teachers and professionals from different fields still have narrow-minds because they want to put themselves inside a cage. They don't want to go out and explore that's why they judge whoever is outside.

Thank you for the compliments Rifky! :D

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Yeah, that because now education means a certificate from exam result which doesn't check how do you think rather just throw up in the exam paper what you read in the last night. Wellcome. How do you know everyone call me like that :D

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I didn't know, I just figured I would call you Rifky hahaha. That is amazing then :P

wow! grabehag mga content ui :')

beautiful body and photo. Interesting background.

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Thank you! Yeah the shadows don't mean anything, they just happened to look like something is going on because of the position of the light source :D

Wow beautiful just beautiful, love the light and the feeling that it is painted by one of the old masters😍 The shadow on the wall is the cherry 🍒 on the cake 🍰

Don’t think anybody wants to change your art, at least I hope you keep creating this🎉


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Nice writing

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Generally people who do not know about art are the first to criticize. That is why it is important to know how to discern criticism, according to who makes them ...

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That is what hurts me, first of all they are my friends - second, they are fine artists as well. That is the point of my rant.

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In my opinion, knowing about art is not the same as doing a good work of art. To know about art is to have the feeling to see it wherever it is. Art is not a matter of technique, of skill with a brush or an instrument, it is the sensitivity to beauty and the message that beauty can transmit. I think your friends "know" how to do good works of art, but that does not mean they understand the role of art...

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I agree with you!