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The story you are going to read is not a novel or a story. This is the story of a mental patient in Britain. Here is the description of the mental illness that I have seen as a doctor. The size of the writing is a little bigger. Read the time. Come visit a mysterious chapter of the human mind.

Catherine. In short, Cathy. At the hospital emergency I first saw me five years ago. The Emergency Department is called A & E (Accident and Emergency-A & E) here.

Cathy's problem is that she does not want to live. He wants to die and he has tried so many times. He was just twenty-two But he has already tried ten times to commit suicide. Most of the time, he tried to commit suicide by overdose. Twice he tried to cut himself with a knife and cut himself off his wrist and tried to kill himself. Overdose in the welfare means that if you want to commit suicides by taking more medicine than the rules. Many tried again to cut the body with a knife and cut it. These symptoms are called together in Deliverate Self Harm or DSH.

Blessing me as a call psychiatrist for a visit to Cathy. According to the hospital norms, those who try to commit suicide or commit suicide in the emergency, the first medicine or surgery specialists are being treated. Before leaving these hospitals, the psychiatrist must first see.
So one day I went to see Cathy. However, before I left the patient's account in the patient's file in the computer, I went through the details.
Twenty-year-old Cathy has no way of understanding that this girl is trying to commit suicide. Nice girl looking at the beautiful girl that everyone looks good. It is really difficult to understand why this girl wants to commit suicide.
Is she Depressed, Anxious, Psychotic or Crazy? No
Family or financial problems? No
Relationship Issue? No
Where is the problem?
Mother sitting next to the bed. Two in the night Shadow of fatigue in appearance With the permission of Cathy, I talked with my mother. Then talk to Cathy.
She has eaten many paracetamol. In the morning, bought paracetamol from some pharmacy. Then wrote a suicide note. She asked the mother to ask another friend for forgiveness. Wrote 'I will miss you. But I must die. '

Cathy is alone with a friend There was nobody in the house in the morning. They closed the door and ate all paracetamol and slept on the sofa. For a while, the mother used to call her for a reason. She did not get any response from the girl's phone and went straight to her home. Come and see the girl has become unconscious. Paracetamal empty packs beside Call 999 and call the ambulance. Cathy comes to the hospital. Because paracetamol is very high, Cathy has to give parvolex injection all day.
Talk to Cathy. I try to understand his untold hardship.
Mother-father's only child Kathy Birth in the city of London. The father used to work in the army and the teacher of the mother school He was born in a happy family.

Dad was a very stubborn mood. The regime on the girl was fatal. Drinks from lime are not protected. Read while reading. Play time to play Even though parents were not able to take care of their children. Every time a father was in his home, there was always a fear and a fear, and Kathy was in the midst. Mother was helpless to her father's strong mood.

Cathy starts to do bad at school. At night, crying out loud. School psychologists are shown. Make up the social service till the incident. In the end, the mother's father divorced.

Cathy gets good for some time. But the mother got involved again. Good parents come home. Cathy was then in secondary school. The ultimate defeat of life is in the hands of the righteous father. Do not tell anyone to fear. One time brave mother says. Parents are again divorced. In those days, Cathy's life has been changed to a lifetime.

At the age of just twelve, Kathy tried first to commit suicide. For the first time, he took the risk of his life to quarrel with a friend. Start from there. Kathy is not able to tolerate her little bit of pride. The thoughts of suicide are always on his head. GP is shown, the psychiatrist is watching, but nothing worked.

When I talked to her, she seemed to be a healthy young woman. Abelila said she was going to say that her suicide attempt is going on.

Periodically, Cathy was born into a special personality disorder or personality problem called Border Line Personality Disorder. At least two percent of people in England suffer from such type of personality disorder.

Those who suffer from this problem, their common symptoms are they can not easily control their emotions. The goal of life is not constant to them. The thoughts of ending them are always on their minds. It is difficult for them to have relationships with others. In most cases childhood, emotion, physical, sexual abuse or other torture occurs.

When I first saw it, I felt that Cathy's suicide risk was much higher. He admitted him to the psychiatric ward. He must stay in the ward for a few weeks. He was sent to the physiotherapy department for special treatment DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy). Once he is released from the ward and is sent to a special kind of residential or residential home where people like Cathy are under special supervision. Cathy, however, was coming twice in the physiotherapy department for her special talk therapy DB twice a week. With this, Cathy was given some medicines.

After leaving the ward, I saw Cathie at least twice, at A & I. Again he came to DSH. Why do not you know that I have a look on his face.
Monthly before, my car was damaged in the town center. Take the garage nearby. Why was the girl who was sitting in the reception, she looked familiar to me.
-Hello Dr. Jahan, nice to see you again. It's Cathy, can you recognize me? I was under your care
-Oh, ya ... trying to remember Cathy. How are you, by the way?
-I am fine doctor Thanks for help me The talking therapy helped me a lot I am OK now. I have started a new job here, my life is worth living now ... so he smiles. Then said tea or coffee, doctor?
-No, thanks. I'm fine.
-It will take you one hour Please do not leave me
I think he was going out to bring something.
Do not go further. Other customers come in I went to talk to the mechanic.
Hours later, the car was just fine. Come to the reception for payment. Meet with Cathy again. When I came out to give me an envelope, he was in my hand. Then said, It's just a thank you card. Have a nice time
Sitting in the car, skull the sketch of her. Beautiful handwriting 'Thank you doctor helping me' God bless you. '
Last week's Saturday. Keeping eyes in the local newspaper. The eyes suddenly got scratched.
'Woman found dead after overdose' paper headline. Overdose the death of the young.
I know the picture. This is Kathy.
It got worse. Eyes come in the wet. The card issued by the Catholics still on the table - Thank you doctor for help me God bless you.
I looked outside the window. The rumbling is raining.
Sorry! I really could not help you Cathy! I said in a loud voice. His card flown through the window and gave him his card. Wasting in the rain '... God bless you.'

• Take this story from my personal experience. Due to patient confidentiality issues, some changes have been made in space, time, and equipment.