It seems like you are very busy and struggling to find some time but the time is not hidden for you to find it. It is there. :D You just need to take it and spend it the right way. Sometimes even reading in your car may be that right way and I am glad you figured that out just like you figured out that there is nothing wrong with wanting something for yourself. Good luck, stay strong and stay calm. Stay happy and spend your time wisely, sending you much love 💚