Many thanks @silentwrath for your comment. Impressive analysis of my writing.

I think what is even worse than accepting the chaos mantra you talked about, is accepting that everything that exist around us is not real, neither we are real. This whole life we perceive only exists in the imagination of the universe or an entity we don't even know because we exist inside it's imagination only.
I find that thinking of this possibility is even more unsettling than believing in the chaos mantra.

Despite the fact that I wouldn't want either of the last two scenarios to be the reality. In my mind, everything and anything is possible. I think that is how we humans come to believe in, or if you wish create, the all knowing, all powerful, all controlling, all loving God. Because all these traits at their fullest form are impossible for humans to comprehend, so we make it possible by believing in a more powerful entity that makes it more possible.

The desire of sharing my life story and the lessons I learned with Steemit people is to send a message to those having hard time in their lives that
1- They can achieve whatever they want despite the difficulties.
2- They are not a lone, even if they feel like it most of the time. And I don't mean by "not alone" that other people are suffering like them, but that those who suffered and were able to move on are sharing their pain and wishing them to succeed and be free by sending them prayers and hopes.
3- They are loved, even if they can't hear it. Because those who share their experiences of hard life love them and support them.

All these sentiments may not mount for much in the physical world, but from my experience, I know that the sentiment of those believed in me and gave me kind and supportive words was like a powerful propelling energy for me to persevere and not give up during the toughest times.

Many thanks for engaging me in an interesting discussion and for the moral support :D