Discipline is the name of the fucking game

2018 was a game changer year for me.
I started off the year in the worst mental state than I have ever been.
I was struck by depression and severe anxiety, and ended a very toxic relationship that drained all that was left out of me.
Insanity was all that was going on inside my own head.
I had to put my whole life on pause, another time again.
I knew where this was headed the day I caught myself googling the most painless ways to commit suicide.
I didn't even know who I was anymore.
After all, I thought I'd lost the most important person in my life on top of my health, what was more to do with life?

But if there's one thing I do believe in, it's in miracles.
And during the 9 following months, I had the chance to experience the most beautiful kind of miracle that exists.
I found him inside my own mind.
I may have started the year on a very difficult note, but I am ending it in the best state of mind that I have ever been in.
If that's not a miracle, I don't know what is!

I will never say it enough.
Meditation gave me a second chance at life.
You could offer me a million $ tomorrow in exchange of the peace and clarity of mind that I have now, and I'd never do the trade!
(Give it a try if you think I'm talking sh***, the bets are on!)

In all honesty you guys, for someone who has been profoundly sad her whole life, never would I have thought that I could feel as ecstatic as I have for the past 6 months, for no reason at all!
Waking up at 5ham to meditate and start my day makes me feel all giddy inside!
No but for real!
I ain't no magician, but I'm telling you, master your own mind and you can master pretty much anything you want after that!🔮✨

As some of you may know, I have a pretty athletic background.
I've been doing sports ever since I knew how to walk, and I've never been one to lack motivation when it comes to do physical activity.
Needless to say, physical activity has taught me more on life than school ever did.
Whether it was on the track, on the soccer field or on the basket ball court, I learned everything from discipline to anticipation to team work.
As of this year, when my mental and physical health started to get better, I started training again consistently.
A few years ago, I ditched all the sports I've previously practiced to focus solely on my running.
However, this year was different for me.
I stopped running in april to only do workouts at home.
One of the reason for that (it may sound silly) but running made me lose tons of weight and I was already underweight and so I didn't want to risk it more.
Nevertheless, I loved the trade so much that still to this day I exercise at home.
All I can tell you is that the level of difficulty is as deadly as when I used to run outside.
I mean, did you think for a sec that something could stop a Sabrina?

So you remember that I believe in miracles, right?
Miracles can come in all sorts of ways, and all sorts of shape.
A few months ago, a micro miracle happened to me.
I was watching t.v. (which happens twice a year, no kidding) and so I stumbled upon a commercial that caught me off guard.
It was one of the rare advertisements I saw that actually generated so much value.
I was stunned and I was hoping to see it again to pay better attention to it.
Call me lucky charm because the luck hit me twice and a day later I saw it on youtube!
(Ps: I'm not someone who idolizes people.
I secretly judge the ones who do😌 but no kidding here, I think I watched this at least 30 times if not more.
And since this is my second time posting it, I guess you can start making me some fanbrina t-shirts.
(fanbrina because my name is Sabrina. Get it? 😉)

All jokes aside, ever since I saw this video and I discovered more about the woman who is featured in it (Caroline Côté), I feel like something inside me switched.
I don't know what it is, I still can't put my finger on it, but man I have the itch!
I live for inspiring people like her!
They simply make the world better just by being in it, and we clearly need more of them!
Ever since I discovered who she is, I feel as if she made me strive even more to exploit the limits of my human potential!

Caroline Côté, if you're reading this, please know that you are taking the discipline game to a whole new level, and I am beyond grateful that I had the chance to discover the incredibly inspiring and beautiful human that you are!💗