The 45 Minutes of My Life

Today is supposed to be my delivery date but my son Michael decided that he wants to come out last monday (october 22). The Journey was pretty fast, exciting and scary at the same time. I succesfully delivered Michael via Cessarian operation.

October 22, 2018

I woke up doing my normal routine, (didn't sleep properly that night). I was feeding my eldest son (Robbie), i started to feel sharp pains and contractions. I tried to ignore it as i was counting on Sunday as my scheduled operation. Pains didn't stop, it just got intense by the time.

Until i finished feeding my son, i felt a sudden a gush of fluids from my body, i was bleeding! I knew i needed to go to hospital pretty soon. I reached my phone to call my husband @mr-neil who is at work. Luckily, my parents is here to help me and look after Robbie. I waited for my sister @shielashraf to take me to hospital. Called up my Doctor and informed her that i was bleeding already, she told me to come to asses me.

11:00 am

At exactly 11am, i reached the hospital, went straight to my doctor. I was told that i was currently in labor, that they will do an Emergency CS an hour from now.

I met my husband @mr-neil in the hospital, taking in charge of paperworks and payments. I didn't have an insurance, but i took a package which saves us money.

11:30 am

I was admitted and for preparation for operation. They've checked my blood sugar several times, shaved me, did CTG for michael and more test which i can't remember. I was shaking the whole time!

Nurses and doctor are friendly, assuring me that everything will be alright, God will lead the way!. It was my second operation. But still i can't forget the amount of pain, trauma and fears i faced with my first CS operation.

I waited for half an hour so..... I was still awake.... Sweating profusely and shaking uncontrollably. I am nervous. I just keep saying Lord, please help me and Michael.

12:15 pm

I was being laid down in a stretcher with my husband and nurses accompanying me to the operation room. I will never forget the place and will remarked forever in my mind that operation room, I held my husband hand assuring me, everything will be alright, that Daddy and Robbie loves me very much. I leave it to God. I felt better and relieved.

12:30 pm

The Doctor explained to me the procedures and the anesthesia he will administered. I only had anesthesia for my lower limbs. He asked me to bend my knees and bring my head lower to my chest, breathe deeply, don't move and try to relax.

Yes, i was in anesthesia. My OB gyne doctor has come. I was in a tremondous sweat and still shaking uncontrollably, nurse thought i was cold, nope! I am crazily super nervous! You are in a operating room, surrounded by people, cutting you alive!

I was awake during the whole time! from the moment i was under anesthesia until i delivered michael. I can felt everything they are doing, pushing and touching, but i do not feel any pains. Sensations is present. I just closed my eyes and keep praying*.

1:02 pm

I have heard a Baby cry!. That must be my baby! Finally, Thank you lord ! We did it!

Michael was crying his heart out when he came out, surprisingly i am still very wide awake. Nurse showed me michael, i thought he looks like me :)

I felt more relieved than earlier, thankful and very happy. I kissed his toes and the nurse had michael kissed me on my cheeks. It was glorious! A miracle!

1:30 pm

The operation lasted for 45 minutes. They informed me it was all done and Congratulations for the new baby

I was transferred to a Recovery room. I was still awake, i am waiting for my self to fall asleep with the the drugs but my maternal hormone is still rejoicing. I was not allowed to drink or eat anything yet not until 8 hours.

I was in Recovery room for at least 6 hours. They are still monitoring my progress. I still feel numbness on my lower limbs but i feel alright.

7:00 pm

I was transferred to the ward shortly after. My family is waiting for me. My mum cried when she saw me, Robbie, to my surprise was scared to come near to her Mummy in the bed. Everyone felt excited after seeing me. I was in terrible pain but felt wonderful.

7:30 pm

Michael Esguerra Dimmick or Mickey for short has arrived for rooming in. He was so cute and tiny. Adorable and very pretty! It was indeed a special moments when i held him in my arms. It was my early best presents for my birthday and christmas.

My very first get up from the bed after operation was an incredible amount of pain, probably because the stitches are fresh and i was been in the bed for long time. The nurse encourage me to ambulate after my catheter was removed for speedy recovery.

I nursed Mickey thru Breastfeeding. There was no milk at the beginning yet but i still nursed him on demand to stimulate the production of milk.

Mickey is 7 days old today, Thanked God i have good amount of milk now too. He is on demand feeding, i nursed every hour, every 2 hours, i am a human pacifier.

And oh! We had a very tasty cake give away from the hospital for newborn. (I think its the best cake i ever tasted, no joke).

This is the bangles for mother and child for newborn protection from child abduction. It beeps when someone lift the baby other than the mother.

(For Baby)

(For Mummy)

He looks so peaceful and calmed...

I may not gone to a typical sort of labour, but i know for sure it doesn't make me less of a mother. I have my own share of pains and struggles. My love for my children will live forever.

Thank you for reading my journey.