When im waiting for something...

Like a general human
I just a human and i have many wishes
Like I want to be a doctor when im six years old
And then I want to be a celebrity when im in senior high school
But for now, dont ask me what i want, i dont know what i want and step by step i was started ask myself "who am i" to myself
The fact is when you have many question for yourself but you cant answer it ....
I dont know how to describe it
But its not only about you, its about your family and the other people in your life
Sometime i want to blame myself because i feel that im only a stupid girl and nothing i can do
I just walk in way but not know what its mean
Do anything was set and i dont care about "what i do, what for this" and many question for it
But too many time in a years ago, i ask many question
And little by little i know that its not true
I must know what i do and what its mean for me
Because we are not a robot, do something was set and walk in way was set

Note; i hope you will understand with my words because im not good in grammar