I've had my car a week now! And I just can't get over how pretty it is! And how much I love it. Yesterday I went to the grocery store, And It was a bit surreal being able to grab a cart and buy lots of food.

Usually on my bicycle I would limit myself to just a basket, Pack the food into my backpack and then take the long bike ride home, Concerned on whether my eggs would be broken. Or the ice cream melted.

So it felt really good being able to pack everything into my trunk and take my sister and me home.

I Messed up though

I'm proud of myself with how much I've learned over the last week.
I'm feeling more and more comfortable in my car. But yesterday on the way home from the library I made a big mistake.
Luckily there were no other cars on the road, But I pulled out and went into the wrong lane that would have had oncoming traffic. And quickly realized I was doing something wrong, and so I moved back into the other lane.

My All or nothing Mindset

If you've read my blog for a while, you know that I've written about how bad the all or nothing mindset is. Which I'm guilty of. After making that mistake, I was so flustered and scared that I began making more mistakes. I almost rear ended a guy because I didn't slow down. I'm realizing more that after making the first mistake, I had the mindset that " I messed up, it's too late to fix it! "
which is obviously a very unsafe mindset to have when you are driving.

I noticed once I allowed myself to laugh off my mistakes, My driving improved once again and I was fine. I just need to learn how to not panic behind the wheel.

I haven't driven since I was 16

My situation is a bit weird. Here I am, 24 years old. Learning how to drive.
But oddly I have a drivers license already, AND a Motorcycle endorsement.
My parents didn't allow me to practice with their cars often. My mom also went to crazy yelling fits, Where she'd scream and yell at me at the top of her lungs, and I tried so hard to focus on driving. So eventually it got to the point where I couldn't drive.

I some how managed to barely pass my driving test.
I knew that If I didn't continuously renew my license that I would have to take the test again, This time with someone I didn't know (I Knew my high school driving teacher). So I made sure to renew my license knowing that I barely could drive.

Also at 16, I couldn't afford a car, I was already paying my monthly phone bill and only worked a little sweeper janitorial job.

So I couldn't afford to get a car for myself.

Now I'm Doing Everything To Learn!

I'm so glad the internet provides so much content to learn from, I've been watching some basic youtube videos to help me feel less overwhelmed. I've been driving my car around the block multiple times a day, And going to nearby businesses to practice. I think if I don't start catching on soon, I May enroll myself in one of those driving schools so I can get some help. I'm a little embarrassed because I'll probably be their oldest student, and they'll probably be confused when they see I already have a license. But That's okay! I'm willing to look like a dummy if that's what it takes to learn! Hahaha.

I'm trying to be very careful! I don't want to put anyone else in danger or hurt my beautiful car!

I'm so excited to get to the point where I can drive to hiking trails, And go on road trips so I can show Steemit around Utah!