πŸ˜•πŸ˜• A NOTE TO MY FRIENDS. I'M TAKING A BREAK πŸ™‹β€β™€οΈ

in life β€’Β  2 months ago

Hi...

ABOUT MY LAST POST

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I haven't been been in a good place for a few days, not feeling good, too much pain and my depression dragging me down. Its hard to keep your head thinking straight when all your thinking is how bad things are. I spent Friday in bed cancelling my meditation class. Not something im proud of but the thought of having to get out of bed, shower then get dressed was just to much.

No I'm not upset with Steemit or my lovely friends. I'm upset with myself, I'm upset for believing my father all those years ago telling me.
*Your useless
You can't do anything
Why can't you be like them on the tv
Why can't you be like the neighbours children
Why did we have you
You do know you are a mistake A Newcastle Brown Ale Mistake meaning a drunken mistake
Your a failure

When someone you look up to says this to you everyday for years You start to believe them

I've had counselling a few times for the abuse i went through, most of the time i am in control whereas other times i can't stop hearing that voice. I compare myself to others all the time, the same goes for on here and everything else i do.

My thoughts

They started after me, look how well they are doing
Why can't i do what they are doing
My posts must be boring
Plus a lot more

I put myself down all the time, its what I've always done, its what I'm trying not to to do.

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So i am going to take a break from posting as my head and heart aren't in it. I am going to concentrate on myself for a while. Try and push those voices out of my head and think more positive but until then i send my dear friends on here a massive THANK YOU for leaving lovely messages.

@merej99
@melinda010100
@drewley
@joalvarez
@roselyn028
@cecicastor
@len.george
@creatr
@inber

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Thank you Google.


Thank you son-of-satire

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Sorry to hear you are getting down on yourself. I find by watching and playing with my cats I can't find time to over think myself. Always good to have an interest you can immerse yourself in. Peace :-)

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Thank you :)

saludos @karenb54,espero contar con tu apoyo y aporte que lo necesito,soy venezolana en crisis.

Take the time you need...people will still be here when you get back.

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I will thank you :)

Take your time and tell your innervoice its ok. Its ok you skipped the class its ok to be sad its ok to think he sucked for telling you this. YOU ARE WORTH IT we Will be here, Steem Will love you in absence and on your return. You Will come back stronger untill that day : be you youre Unique and wurth Our while

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Thank you. I will keep telling myself just sometimes i don't hear it.

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Let me know When you are back !

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Hi. Thank you. I am slowly going to to try and get back into it :)

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First back on track with your body

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I'm still on my diet, as for my mind that's going to be a slow burner :)

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Take your time we Will be here

Let's see what you are.
You have started and grown on a new platform that wasn't invented when you were born.
You have been successful there, how many other people have started with and after you that are now gone?
You have a devoted slave of many years, how many others can say the same?
You have two delightful daughters, who one day, will present you with the desired grandies.
If not, visit a farm when they are doing AI.
You put up with that doddery old bugger from down under, that alone means you gotta stay.

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I wouldn't call you doddery.. but your def a buga. My email is karenbarron@blueyonder.co.uk.

Thank you hun :)

Breaks are always good. Take a breathier and you'll come back even stronger!

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Thank you. I hope so :)

Awwww God bless you @karenb54

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Thank you :)

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I know how that feels, when depression takes full control:( I really hope it will let you go soon, and you will return to us! Take care, our dear Karen! <3

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Thank you hunny. I hope it will leave me soon. :(

Oh get well sooner, we are waiting you back!

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Thank you :)

Hey, Karen. Do take a break but be sure to come back to us! Don't listen to that voice from the past. He'sgone and you are you and worth a whole lot more than he ever was! I came from a similar background and I have survived despite the B. in my life. You are better than this and I hate seeing my friend suffering because of some old fool. You are loved and are special.

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Hi friend. I am on the mend i hope but taking it one day at a time and slowly trying to get back into steemit. :)

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Good to hear, Karen. I miss having you around here on Steemit!

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