I Feel like I wanted to vomit this early morning and every night for that matter, it is because of the nasty nauseating side-effect of my medicine, my Cinacalcet which I am just taking once a day because of the said side-effect. That is why I am trying to combat it with eating fruits but tonight was different as the grapes that my mother had bought for me provided no improvement.
So I kept on getting hiccups and this feeling of fullness. My extra fluids in my body doesn't help as well, it adds to the feeling of fullness. I am just glad that I am not that breathless but it is the eve of my dialysis so I am thankful that sooun I will get my needed relief.
But it feels like an eternity with this kind of discomfort and suffering that I am experiencing because if you have nausea and feeling of fullness you really could not eat. So most of my time is just like pointless because I kept on waiting for the day to come to an end so that I will get to my dialysis which gives me a temporary relief until I take my Cinacalcetr again.
So I feel like I am in a Chemotherapy and I know that soon enough one of my organs would fail. I am certain with that until some kind of medical intervention happens or a miracle from God is delivered by one of his angels. I am really fed-out from this life, it is not enjoyable anymore although I haven't enjoyed much of my stay here on earth and it is a tragedy considering we only have one chance to live here in this world and all I got was a lousy life.
You can imagine my situation and condition, wherever I would go there is a barrier, from eating to even walkking from my bed I could not do without any restrictions and even my breathing is restricted which is why I am planning to buy those oxygen machine that could very well make me feel better especially during my dialysis where I needed oxygen most of the time.
Yes it is a good plan but those are expensive ones but I guess the oxygen machines are now essential for my health needs so it is on the table now and God-willing I could get one so that I could use it in times that I am laboring in my breathing after I had some excessive fluid intake.
I still have a lot to do in my health issues particularly but I do not have much funds for them and is really worrying about my saved funds depleting without getting replaced because of my current expenses for my Parathyroid and phosphorus management. It is just a God-sent thing that I could earn from steem and that is definitely a miracle in itself because without this source of income I am done for already many months ago. So I thank the steem community because of the great help that I am getting from steemians in the background that care and understands my health concerns, troubles, issues, complications, disabilities, worries, and all the things that makes me feel troubled deep down to my brittle bones..