New Chapters, Self Doubt & Experiences that Take your Breath Away
Do you have a personal growth challenge for 2017 ? Something that scares the shit out of you and you can do nothing except keep moving forward because there is a pull you can feel from within ?
With the dawning of 2017, after being a doctor practicing medicine for the past 15 years, there arrived opportunity to challenge myself to become comfortable sharing medical & life experiences in a totally new way. With newness comes discomfort and I have circled in and out of self doubts around whether any of this was a good idea.
My first video is actually YES, MY VERY FIRST VIDEO. There was no trial run, no practicing..this was an on-the-ground-running experience. I have criticized every single sound, head shake, eye contact and have proceeded to make four more videos in the past two months. I am attempting to face my self doubts by trusting the process.
With each new video, my mannerisms are changing...I am speaking more comfortably...I am attempting to develop a level of comfort with my fears and expectations. I am standing in a small place imagining what lies beyond this dream.
https://unsplash.com/@jmacpherson
Each day, I am in service to the needs of the people. And with each person, I feel so driven to speak into their process towards health, wellbeing and the process in between. I am a mother to many and have valued my process of self-care throughout these shifts.
This project is a connection to sharing experiences...to opening up to a broader discussion of medical and personal care.
And the fun part is that I get to do this video business project with my best friend, Fia :) She is the master behind the studio that we have created in the basement of NIHC
Complete with shadow boxes and a ring light :)
In past, I have always hidden behind pretenses of shyness. I have denied my strengths in being a shining light in my life for far too long.
This is my personal challenge for 2017: To be brave, to follow my heart, to believe in faith beyond fears, to trust my process and embrace my experiences of interdependence on the path as it opens up to me.
You can do it. Just be yourself and not being somebody you're not.
Truth ! Thank you for the support :)
You will see yourself slowly evolving in front of the camera. It is much like getting to know yourself better.
It is such a cool experience to have a record of an evolution.
"With each new video, my mannerisms are changing...I am speaking more comfortably...I am attempting to develop a level of comfort with my fears and expectations. I am standing in a small place imagining what lies beyond this dream."
Beautifully said. I used to take self portraits and I firmly believe in the therapeutic nature of being in front of the camera. Definitely shapes you as a person
I am learning this :) Thank you for sharing !