Today I decided that I quit smoking | No more cigarettes for me..

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Ok ok, I know how this works, let's first see how long I actually quit, right?

True! I quit smoking before, several times actually.. some were easy peasy, others were muy dificil. The last time I quit was in Spain, while boyfriend started using a vaporizer and had quite some cravings for cigarettes. I quit cold turkey, and it was surprisingly easy if I say so myself. Somehow it was the right time and right mindset. I hated standing on the balcony to smoke during winter.. We both went back to smoking when boyfriend was working in Budapest for just a few weeks.. And I joined, I know, I know.. that was weak..

So what's changed now?

I've been quite done with smoking for some time already, I hate the smell, and often I don't even enjoy it anymore as it's just nasty. But instead of quitting I cut down the cigarettes to half of what I used to smoke and the past month I sometimes even smoked half of that. When you're a smoker yourself, you know that smoking isn't any fun when you're having a cold. Often I've been disgusted even more with the taste in my mouth, irritating nose because of the smell and not to forget the endless coughing at night keeping me awake and in more pain with every cough. That's what was about to happen here, as my daughter gifted me her first cold caught at preschool...

I'm done with smoking

While she's already pretty ok today, I'm feeling like crap. My head hurts and my throat even worse, and today that made me wake up with the determination to quit today. I know that today would probably be easy, heck, even tomorrow could be easy (depending on how I feel), but this time I don't want to start smoking again as soon as my throat lets me, but quit forever. I'm done with the smell, I'm done with the "F*ck, we forgot to buy cigarettes" every few days, and I feel we can use that money for more important things. So I'm done, and I hope that my boyfriend will follow my example. I didn't mention or ask him to do so, he will find out in a few days that I'm the worst ex-smoker out there.. Oh shoot, he already knows, but he will be remembered.. This time I will use some extra guidance like meditations, to help me get through it easier...

Keep ya posted!

~Anouk