Every day when I wake up, I have my routine. I meditate for 10 to 15 minutes to center myself. Then I open my laptop to check my emails and work on some things. At around 7 am, I head downstairs to eat breakfast. After which I'd go to take a bath to prepare for work. What is not part of my routine however, is what awaited me inside the bathroom this morning.
When I went inside, I noticed something unusual. There was a squeaking sound just underneath the toilet. If memory serves, It didn't take me a second to figure out what it was — a mouse is in my presence. I bolted the bathroom immediately faster than you can say "Bingo!" at a bingo club and I stayed outside for close to 15 minutes in hopes that the mouse will leave.
When I came back, relief quickly washed over me when I realized the mouse is not in the bathroom anymore and I then proceeded to take my bath. Looking back now as I'm writing this piece, I realized it was rather silly of me to be so afraid of that tiny little mouse. I acted out of fear even though I know that mouse can never hurt me in any way. I also realized my thoughts and actions were driven by one thing— my irrational fear.
You see, I have an irrational fear of mice. Ever since I was a kid, whenever I would see a mouse running around, I get really scared and run the other direction. I don't know why but they sure scare the heck out of me. I have other fears too growing up. Like whenever my family would drive somewhere and we would cross a bridge, I get really anxious and I would have these weird imaginations that the bridge might collapse just as our car is crossing it and we'd all die. Or when I would ride an elevator and I get really scared that it might get stuck and I'd be left inside all alone.
But most of those irrational fears, over the years I've come to outgrow them. But my irrational fear of mice? Let's just say it's as persistent as that annoying salesman who keeps on bugging you to buy his unappealing hair products. I know my fear of mice sounds silly, but I bet you have some irrational fears in your life that maybe you're not even aware have affected the way you live too one way or another. Although it may be on a grander scale.
Like that fear you have of public speaking.
Or that fear of failure when it comes to chasing after your dreams.
Or that fear of rejection you have when it comes to courting someone.
You see, we all have them. We all have different fears in our lives. Irrational or not, we all have them. They say that the best way to conquer your fear is to face it. And I believe that. Some say it's best to reflect and to question one's mind as to why they fear a certain thing or event in the first place. I believe that too.
But how does one get rid of say, in my case, a fear of mice? I've tried reasoning with myself but it never works. I've tried exposing myself to them but it only increased my anxiety. Maybe there is a better way to deal with this.
So I urge you, my dear readers to share with me your tips on how you deal or dealt with your irrational fears in life. It is highly appreciated.
Do you also have some irrational fears that you're struggling to get rid of? If so, can you share them with me?
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