Allow Yourself To be Strong
happiness does not arise from eliminating your problems. There are poor people and hungry children who smile and laugh every day. There are people who are in the same situation as you, but who feel lucky to still be alive in the world. So allow yourself to be a force to be happy, to see yourself as worthy of success. Allow yourself to be in control of your life and don't keep pretending. Take control. You can.
You are in the situation right now, so surely you have the motivation to do something. That's what you need and have! Immediately make a decision to do something. When you decide, things around you will change. Must change, can't help but change. Lock this motivation and let it grow until it almost explodes. Cultivate thirst, grow motivation. Good things will soon come true.