You story is really sympathetic to me because went you were young,you had a lot of dream for your seft of becaming an automobile engineer but fortunately for you did not success .
My condolences to your mom who pass on and that was the only person who could have supported you dreams but death took.her away but am sure you dream of becoming an artist still cause you haven't explain your out come about it but am glad your dream.of getting married to.a foreign wife still stand