Do not Google it

If our daughter gets over her flu, the MRI is on Tuesday. Until today I have only been hoping that she can get it done so that we would know more. This uncertainty is slowly killing me. But now when we are already close to the date, I started to panic about the things they can find. They have to put her under general anesthetic for the MRI because she is too small to stay still for an hour. That scares me as well.

“MRI can detect a variety of conditions of the brain such as cysts, tumors, bleeding, swelling, developmental and structural abnormalities, infections, inflammatory conditions, or problems with the blood vessels. It can detect damage to the brain caused by an injury or a stroke. MRI of the brain can be useful in evaluating problems such as persistent headaches, dizziness, weakness, and blurry vision or seizures, and it can help to detect certain chronic diseases of the nervous system, such as multiple sclerosis.” Source

So if they find something, what ever it is, it’s not going to be great. I’m telling myself over and over that the MRI will be clean and there is some “normal” reason for all of this. Like her low blood sugar or something similar.

We received a letter from the hospital about the MRI and it said we should talk about the coming anesthesia with the child via play or books a day before. Any tips? How do you explain something like that to an under two-year-old? After those five days in the hospital our daughter has talked about nurses, needles and blood. She keeps repeating “no needles”, “no blood” and looks at her arms. So she still has some fears because of all the tests that they did and now I’m taking her back to the same place, even to the same ward.

I’m trying my very best not to show my fears to her. It seems to be tougher than I thought but so far I’m doing okay or at least okay-ish.

Hugs, Momone