I have rib pain right now and it seemed no to go away, it popped out from my sneezing month's back and it is hurting me whenever I would roll unto my left side because it is my usual position in sleeping.
I also used the wheelchair coming from the bathroom as I cannot walk anymore because i am already dragging my left leg because it is painful with its joint. The stiffness in my body is still not going to get better too because it do not want to go away.
Making my phosphorus and calcium levels didn't give any improvements into what I feel like in my weakness issue. I thought that upon normalizing my calcium levels would improve my strength but I was wrong, I still feel weak and weaker than the past months.
It all bothers me, imagine stiffness, weakness, pain and nausea everyday, What a life to live? Most people would have jumped from a building, tied a rope unto their necks, or blown their brains off with a gun if put in a condition like mine.
But I will not do those, I am a Christian and those are sins but maybe God would forgive me if I would get reckless and accidentally hurt myself. It is a hell of a life I must say because it is, no greater a misery a man can take than this because I am a walking torture victim of my own body. I hope God would let me rest, I am already tired.