For me to not just a memory my brother, every scene good or bad in our view, is actually a lesson that contains wisdom. We say we don't like something even though it is good for us, because not everything can go according to our wishes, there is Allah who is all-regulating and all-knowing what is best for humans.

I really appreciate your sincerity to try to cheer me up in times of sorrow. My prayers, your prayers and everyone's prayers may be conveyed to my father who is now in the grave, always accompanied by light, as the light he has made in illuminating his family's life while in the world (I'm sure he'll get better than what he was given).