Talk about my Insomnia

It's a pattern I am trying to break, probably its a reflection of how much time my mind takes to calm down and relax. I have tried everything I know, from showers, hot milk, meditation and even changing up my room to make sleep pleasure. Yet, my beloved Sleep resist me. It's a tug of war love affair, but she's been winning. The movies and video's used to do the trick but now I have watch two movies and I am still up.

I have concluded it's life, it's my mind trying to find solution. It's been a stressful couple of weeks, a stressful year in general. Now I am up, it's 3:02AM and she is no where to be found. It's Friday, probably I should go out and have a couple drinks, let the alcohol soak in, come back home and pass out. Or probably I should get a smoke, get stoned, enter the dimensions of God's and wake up in the morning feeling mellow. It's work before, probably it would work again. Life been rough, I don't want it to become a pattern but it offers solution.

Being the man with responsibilities has taken a lot from me, probably I am taking this to serious, probably the life of a stoner is calling me out. If people see me like this, I could only imagine what they would say or think, "he must be losing it". Well its Friday night, it's 3:12AM, I need to be up by 8 and out of the house by 8:30AM.

I wrote all of this shit, I wonder if I should share, what would folks think about me. My new found flow, browsing through Steem hoping that the sleep kicks in... this Insomnia shit got to go.