Time Trickster called Puck

This drawing started out as a doodle, I love how she turned out, I am going to draw her again and make her a little more professional looking, clean borders and background design. I think she has a story to tell, but I am not so good at telling stories, I can draw stories, but words are not so easy for me to render.

I am thinking this little puckster is trapping my energy by giving me the illusion of time through the mechanical clock. The background design is the net of mechanical time. I've decided not to pay any attention to mechanical time, except when I have to be somewhere on time. I avoid those type of appointments as much as socially acceptable. If I don't take time seriously maybe I won't take aging so seriously. The only thing that seems to age is the body, I still feel like I around 7 years old.

The reason I think time is mind made, is if I am focused in some particular way time seems to run slow, fast, or it stops. I think time is part of my imagination, our social collective imagination as well. If I stop imagining time it does seem to disappear like when I focus on the breath until it becomes beautiful. I must put in a disclaimer, I don't recommend meditation to anyone, it does not cure anything, it may bring up everything you have stuffed away and tried to forget totally disrupting your life until you clean up the mess. Drawing may not win one enlightenment but it is much like meditation, so be careful with that blank piece of paper, you never know what might manifest.

Usually time stops when I am intently focused on something and relaxed. I really like that trick, focused but relaxed, it's amazing how the mind expands and the body disappears. People take drugs to get to this place, I learned how to ride the breath using Anapana Sati meditation. The body disappears and the mind expands naturally without any props or aids. When this happens all sorts of things might come up, monsters and treasures are hiding in what psychologist call the subconscious mind. That's why one really needs to cultivate equanimity in creating art or meditation. I used to run and get the same type of mindset but it only lasted as long as I was running, I am too old to run miles and miles like I used too, I walk now. And I don't want to depend on drugs, the breath is always there for me, well until I die, that is. When you hit the wall in meditation the first time, much like when running long distance and break through, all you have to do is remember breaking through and you are there with very little effort, it just takes dedication and practice! Remembering is called mindfulness or sati in Pali, I am paying no mind to this little time puckster next time I bring her to life.