F.E.A.R "Original"

zellypearl (66)in #fiction • 6 years ago (edited)

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I stood like a dummy watching the crowd, and gazing at the judges.
What am I doing here? This question cut through.
Suddenly a voice airing from a loudspeaker spoke; young girl what is it you have to do
Why standing there like a monument?
Do you have anything to show forth or not?
Shoot up! We are all waiting.
The voice sounded impatient and impolite but in a calm way.
I could felt sweats running down my legs and forehead.
My impulses seems to be sending the wrong signals as I started shaking and silently freaking out.
Nobody could understand what was really going on with me at that moment. Only I knew how my system was at that point in time

I tried to alter something but words were failing me.
By this time, the audience were already shouting and making jest.
Saying some kinds of annoying and unpleasant things.
I watched as the shouted and shouted and many started frowning and scorning
I felt hot tears fighting it way up my eyelids but I managed to control it and act cool; of course nothing was really cool at that point in time cause everything seems to be going down the wrong route.
I tried speaking up again but my voice was cranky and shaky.
I prepared so well for this so what the hell is going on.
Why I'm I now messing up the whole thing?
I couldn't help but wonder. As if its not enough things had to move exactly as Maria predicted

Earlier that day, Maria my cousin told me about how she messed up her show a night she was call to present a talk.
She was completely prepared but on seeing the large crowd, everything turned into jeopardy.
She said immediately she was called upon and she stood out, she became so dumb and mute, that she had to be called upon like three consecutive time before she became conscious again
Though she was like that, but at some point she adjusted and tried to fit in to the large crowd that was before her.

Why does it feel like Maria's experience is repeating itself.
Why does it feel like the whole thing is taking place again?
Could it be because she shared her experience and that's why everything is happening the way it did?
I couldn't think straight for a moment.
To be frank, I even forgot I was still up on stage because I was lost in thoughts.
When I finally realized myself..
I said this words to myself "If Maria could fight it then I could do better"
Then, it was like a new phase of hope was revived.
I developed some confidence in a way I couldn't explain
I looked up to face the audience and deliver what I was called upon to deliver.
Behold when I search through the crowd I could see Maria , and she was whispering the words "You can do it"
At that point I didn't just believed in myself again, I believed her words " YOU CAN DO IT"

Morals

Fear kills faster than sword
It destroys lives and destinies.
When once you give it a chance to set in, it destroys you and terminates your future.
Do not give FEAR a place in your life. Fight it.!
You don't have to be perfect to believe in yourself.
Stay true and be confidence
Listen to that inner voice that says to you "YOU CAN DO IT".!