Performance (original poetry)
Performance
Cross-legged in front of my empty altar
Stoned into a post-hysterics meditation
Palms placed upwards in textbook position
Open to the three heads of Cerberus,
Open to Salacia of Seawater
Open to St. Christoper -
No, today it is Zen Buddha
This is a performance
Starved belly gurgling its acidic aria
The ghosts of my sanity, my
Crooked-toothed god, my
Boozy-breathed saint
Grind their molars into my deafened ears
I am inspired, I am
Hungry
I am art, I am
Lonely
I am youth, I am
Ugly -
This is a performance
Frida Kalo without the paint brushes
Da Vinci with both ears
I scream
And the mosquitoes come
I scream
And I become that cadaverous-hipped New Delhi cow
I scream
And the mosquitoes come
I scream
And I swat them with my tail
I scream
Sucking, biting, itching, itching
Scream -
when late night moon,
The only witness to your worldless vignettes
Convinces you to give up the pen and paper for lent
You choose to fast instead
Ribs are the only satisfying reward
Body dysmporhia becomes your only art
Unable to create beyond your own self-hate
You are that sheepish sacrifice
You are a sinner's high
You are so obviously sane that you've resorted to
Self-induced OCD
Facial tick
Hand wash fifty times
Tomorrow, Trichotillomania
Mania, mania, mania -
This is a performance
Continuing to deny your spiritual decay
To trip off the mushrooms that take root in its rot
Sniff the patchouli and hallucinate the plot -
This is a performance
Botticelli's The Birth of Venus
To you is not a work of art
But just a fat bitch
You are not envious of her
This is a performance -
Tremors take hold in your cowardly surrender
A single truth for you to remember:
The only reason to walk this earth,
My false god, my chosen curse
Zameena Zen
This was really great once again. You have talent for sure.
Your comment is so kind, thank you so much <3
This text is raw and rich and bursts with layered meaning. The essential experience of the artist who refuses to either not see the world as it is or not feel it as it is. It dares you not to close your eyes, to look closer and read slower.
Always love reading your reflections. I hope the layered meaning comes across as intended. Thank you thank, as always <3
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