Expecting Your Presence

There are many things I should not do, one of which is expecting you back. I should not be expecting you, I should not want you back. Because everything is not different anymore.

I should have forgotten you and not expecting you anymore. But I still feel that I need you. I still miss you, always thinking about you even though you are no longer with me.

I realized that all I was doing was wasted. Mengahrapkan someone who is not likely to come back to me. Want someone who no longer has feelings for me.

I also know that I should still want you back. I should not still wish you were here with me, accompanying my days. Spend time with you again as before, but it's all just my wishes that will never become a life.

Expecting you who are gone and no longer in my life is the impossible I always crave. Although I know what I want is impossible but I still keep dreaming about you. I should not have let you back again. But I can not fool this feeling, it still wants you any more.

If the person I expect also expects me back maybe I will be very happy. Because you also still expect me back, but the fact is, you do not want me to be in your life anymore.

It could even be that you already have someone new. And you may have completely forgotten me for being happy with the one who is beside you right now.

Even though I know it's no longer possible, I still keep you back to me. I know I should not expect you but I can not lie to my own feelings either.

I still remember about you and still always miss you. I also do not want this to happen to me but it's hard to kill my feelings for you.

Maybe I can pretend I do not care about you anymore. Pretend not to love anymore and have no feelings anymore. But deep inside my heart still keeps a million feelings for you. Still keep remembering you, miss you and even I'm still waiting for you. And hope you come back to me again.