A Day is A Lifetime
The amount we are able to learn in a single day is extraordinary. The question to ask ourselves is, if the amount we are able to learn in a single day is extraordinary - Why have we the world we have today?
Well if we learn bad habits or there are cracks in our foundation, then that's going to lead to instabilities...coping mechanisms...compensations....suppression...abuse...ineffectiveness...
Fortunately mistakes are able to be corrected.
Unfortunately not all mistakes are able to be corrected as they are beyond repair. Sometimes it just sucks.
Shame
This is a word I realized today had a crack in my foundation in connection with another word. That word being Greed. My shame has been suppressed within Greed. I've allowed Greed to be a driving force within me. In recent days I've been questioning this sadness that has always kind of lingered in the pit of my stomach...I couldn't quite pin point it...and I was allowing myself to go into it to see what would come up within me, and there were a lot of defenses and offenses as justifications almost like guarding me from a deeper part of myself like my own layered mind protection - like my ego survival system did not want me to really question and challenge Greed. In going into this I realized that I've had a rather extensive history with Greed and that in having made many mistakes I could see that there was very little remorse or shame...no shame on mistakes connected to greed....greed always had a justified offense or defense like a war game strategy game theory.
So there's been a piece of me suppressed within greed which has really been quite sad and I hadn't allowed myself to see that part of myself.
Today I allowed myself to go into my shame in relationship to greed. I went through some uncomfortable moments of sadness. Seeing my greed was completely humiliating.
I realized a few more things:
Vulnerability doesn't mean being emotional.
Vulnerability is about exposure.
Greed is fueled as Fear of loss
Shame is a key for developing integrity.
Humility is not a bad thing.
Ego Survival System - What I mean by this is your 'force field'....your Bubble....your battle armor offenses and defenses...your base layer mind protection system. It takes guts to challenge your ego survival system because it's your very best offenses and defenses...your very best justifications, excellent strategy...it's the tricks you've been using for competitive advantage in competing for survival.
I went for a walk this morning and decided to challenge myself in being vulnerable, real and raw and speaking in the moment on the points outlined here.
I've recognized the tendency for me to be quick to judge myself and the tendency for me to jump into a panic reaction and restless like rush experience.
I'm challenging myself in living the word vulnerability by doing vlogs when I go for walks and talking about what I'm learning, what I'm realizing, what's new for me - I'm taking my sharing a bit more seriously and giving out what I've been resisting to give myself permission to do. Share. For me - I've always had this judgement in the back of me of judgement and comparison and I've wrestled with it silently as It scared me to acknowledge any and all discomforts...to the point where it's like I've guarded myself from my own discomforts....Soooo - Vlogging, ULogging...is a point for me to face me and the different pieces/parts of me where I can document my process of change.
I use to vlog all the time - but then at sometime I justified a defense towards not vlogging....believing that if I am to be real and raw that I will compromise my character in this world and will sabotage my best survival. It's ironic because it seems like the exact opposite. If you suppress and self-censor yourself...over time it's like so sad because it's like that saying, "If you don't use it....you lose it".
And, Holding Back is such a cop out...such a compensation for fear of loss....ironically you're always a loser within fear of loss because your holding onto the fear of loss....and the sloppy flip side to it is compensating...and then compounding your loses by being an abuser...a real loser...a greedy fucker. Such a shame.
So With this is mind, stay tuned for a walk-in talk into the dark nooks and crannies of myself - where I've been hiding from seeing.
Cheers and Best Regards
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One's day and life could be spent better if he uses it well and correct his mistakes.
The thing is, this is life. It is how it is supposed to work, so we will make mistakes because we are designed that way but also will have to correct them too.
If we give importance to time than it will give us back the benefits of it as well.
We do waste it like it is nothing but to keep in mind it it sure is free but it aint cheap as it is not gonna come back .
The value of a day is indeed immense if we get to value it.
well said brother - hear here!
I agree that ego is our armor. It is necessary to maintain our personality and yet very so often it gets in the way of the development of the same persons personality.
It is a bit of a conundrum just like shame. Too little of it and you start to loose qualities like honor and honesty and too much of it and it becomes detrimental.
Great post! Humility is a Lesson I learned from my Dad since childhood. I'm extremely grateful for that.
i think its a good idea !! keep it up
Hi @worldclassplayer, I think most people believe that if they have a high IQ then they will be better off in every aspect of life, but I think EQ matters more, for me, it is a number that says more about your nature and understanding of the world around you.
I also believe that people walking on the path of self-development are more content with their lives. I think you should learn about the chakras, that are situated in diff. parts and are concerned with diff. types of emotions.
I liked a line in this post - "Unfortunately not all mistakes are able to be corrected as they are beyond repair."
I recently posted a fictional story that talks about the mistakes humans are prone to make in the future. I hope you give it a chance and read.
Thanks
@cryptogecko
You have a lot of awesome posts, but this is
by far one of your best ones man.
Excellent post thanks for sharing.
Buen post, te sigo!
This means so much to me, it is speaking directly to my heart, i have to allow this to ponder upon the pond of my mind. Thank you
live like every day counts!