Dismissive - Word redefinition

Dismissive - This weeks word

dismissive
dɪsˈmɪsɪv/Submit
adjective
feeling or showing that something is unworthy of consideration.
"monetarist theory is dismissive of the need to control local spending"
synonyms: contemptuous, disdainful, scornful, sneering, snide, scathing, disparaging, negative, unenthusiastic, offhand, perfunctory; informalsniffy, snotty; raredimissory
"she often talked of him in dismissive terms"

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not consider others and information that they may have to assist me in my task, and instead assume that they will waste time if I communicate with them for a moment.

I forgive myself that I haven't seen/realised and understood how there is no need to be rude or dismissive toward another, and if I am busy and have little time to spare, it is ok to say " please come back another time" and not experience guilt about it.

I see/realise and understand how my dismissive-ness is often steeped in guilt of saying NO and within this there is a slight fear that they won't like me or say negative things about me as being unhelpful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perhaps create fear and guilt within myself and negative responses from others because I how I am experiencing myself as putting too much pressure on myself to get stuff done, to the detriment of my relationships with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dismiss another with my words and actions, because I have created a belief within and as me that I don't have time to participate with them in that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into stress because I have put so much pressure on myself to get something done, because I have told myself that I will do it beforehand, like creating an outcome, and when I can see that my desired outcome may not happen because someone is 'stealing time from me' I become irritated and anxious that I will not reach my goal that I have set for myself.

I commit myself to pace myself, to remind myself that it is ok to set myself goals, but at the same time it is counterproductive to become stressed and worried about creating my outcome, because within this there is no enjoyment and only actions, because I see/realise and understand how I am rushing to the finish line.

I commit myself to take breaths when I experience anxiety and stress rising within me.

I commit myself to not project an outcome ahead of myself, and to instead make a to do list and slow down in the breath in each moment of focus in what I am doing.

I have seen/realised and understood how rushing doesn't necessarily give me more time, because so much energy is wasted in rushing, and I have become lost within the process, so I am not necessarily creating my best work.