Dear diary

Trying to find a good 3d anatomy app or tool so i can better draw my pain. I can see it clearly in my mind but cant really find an anatomy chart to do my pain justice. So heres a new little doodle. My sinuses are inflammed, infected and ive had a clear thick nasal discharge which i know is coming from source problem. Its either in my sinuses or more specifically something to do w the sphenoid sinus, or my neck, or my sphenoid bone. I believe a nerve is entrapped causing muscle tension, dura tension, thick mucous production, inflammation, among other symptoms. I haven't taken my antibiotics yet for several reasons. Depending on what the source is, if its left untreated it could cause a brain infection, meningitis, blindness and death :). Oh goody. I know this shit is fixable. I can feel it. I need a miracle. Many of you who know me might think im a bit negative, worrisome, or whatever. It has been extremely helpful for me to cry, to totally accept fear, to be angry, to be dreadful and dark. It has released loads of negative energies in my system. I am actually quite peacful in my inner world, i am optimistic, & joyful. The pain has been my biggest teacher in life allowing me to see more clearly. There are different degrees of pain however. Blah blah, my new doodle. Hopefully i can find a better 3d anatomy tool.