"... with tears in my eyes"

Yesterday all day on television, it was. The ninth of May, they said joyfully and loudly about our victory, and quietly and little - about the death of people, not only our fellow tribesmen. Remember your family, go through all the names. Who were missing? I will do the same.

Our family lived and now lives in Siberia. Father was not taken to the front, he was a good organizer, he knew how to catch fish. He headed the fishery, then it was called the motor-fishing station. The army needed to be fed. He coped with this task.

Mom, as always, grew vegetables in the vegetable garden, went after the cattle. But our mother's sister was a niece, and her family. When I became an adult, my mother once confessed that during the war it was very hungry, I wanted at least once to eat a lot of bread.

I was born in October 1944. There was such a disease - scrofula. I do not know what is the reason that the children were ill with it, but the result is terrible - blindness. There was a war, we lived in the village, there was no ophthalmologist. I was about a year old.

On the right eye, the thorns have already sat down, they were coming to the pupil on the left eye. And suddenly one granny gives his mother advice: to break the currants, to soar, to wash, to put the sheet on his face, to bathe. And one day my mother removes leaves from my face, and I look! That was fun!

The right eye opened, but opted and did not see anything, besides, he mowed. But the left one looked for two eyes. Later the doctor said that I will study at school, read and write, and my eye will straighten. When I was already retired, I learned that in Tomsk in the regional hospital eye pull, this operation is done quickly and inexpensively.

We talked with my son, he told me: "Your eyes suit me." So anywhere and did not go. At the front was my mother's brother Fedot Kasyanovich Ivanov. He died. In the Camp in Tomsk on the stele is his name. He is not married, but before the war he had a relationship with a woman.

And when I was 16 years old, a girl came to visit us, a little older than me, who said she was the daughter of Fedot Kasyanovich-Svetlana. Took it as a native, my mother bought her a wool blanket as a present. And when Sveta left, it turned out that I do not have some female gizmos.

They did not understand. But if not for the war, maybe she had all these little things already, it did not make sense to take without demand. I did not see her again. Here is my account of the war: my mother's malnutrition, my strabismus, the death of Fedot Kasyanovich.

Of course, we did not die of hunger, as in Leningrad, bombs did not bomb us, as in Stalingrad. But why should it be so? And twenty-odd million dead people? Broken fates? The crippled people? Ruined houses? Hunger and cold? This all counts the war.

When I was 25 years old, I went on a trip to Czechoslovakia. I do not know, deliberately or accidentally, instead of the Lenin Museum, we were taken to the church. And then somehow - in the cemetery of Soviet soldiers during the Second World War.

The cemetery is large., Well-groomed, on each grave there are flowers. And on the monuments - the name, patronymic, surname, sometimes one thing. But that is characteristic. All, as a rule, very young, for twenty years, died after the Ninth of May. Victory was celebrated, and they were continued to be killed.

And mothers were waiting for them. I cried so ... Could she be damned, this war! Another time I was in Bulgaria. There I hoped, and now there is a monument to a Soviet soldier. He is called Alyosha. The guide told us that the sculptor had placed him face to face with the Motherland.

Do not think that I'm crazy, but somehow it seemed that he wants to go home to the Union, but he can not move. And my mother's house is waiting for me ... Again I burst into tears. Does old age come? With relatives, the house becomes our salvation: taken to a hospital, conducted to a bath, bought a medicine ... Who will take care of mothers, if millions perished?

Be war cursed three times! I very much regret that somewhere they are shooting somewhere, they are bombing ... That the peoples of the whole earth will give orders to their parliaments: not a single shot! How much money would be freed: for medicine, education, culture ... Or let their children go to war, or else, by the heat of other people's hands, rake up heat.