Superior Quotes #70: Fyodor Dostoyevsky
نني أحب الانسانية , غير أن هناك شيئا في نفسي يدهشني : كلما ازداد حبي للانسانية جملة واحدة , نقص حبي للبشر افرادا , اي أشخاصا لهم حياتهم الخاصة
نني أحب الانسانية , غير أن هناك شيئا في نفسي يدهشني : كلما ازداد حبي للانسانية جملة واحدة , نقص حبي للبشر افرادا , اي أشخاصا لهم حياتهم الخاصة
If I had a reader and he had read all I have written so far of my adventures, there would be certainly no need to inform him that I am not created for any sort of society.
The trouble is I don't know how to behave in company. If I go anywhere among a great many people I always have a feeling as though I were being electrified by so many eyes looking at me.
It positively makes me shrivel up, physically shrivel up, even in such places as the theatre, to say nothing of private houses. I did not know how to behave with dignity in these gambling saloons and assemblies; I either was still, inwardly upbraiding myself for my excessive mildness and politeness, or I suddenly got up and did something rude.
And meanwhile all sorts of worthless fellows far inferior to me knew how to behave with wonderful aplomb-- and that's what really exasperated me above everything, so that I lost my self-possession more and more.
I may say frankly, even at that time, if the truth is to be told, the society there, and even winning money at cards, had become revolting and a torture to me.
Positively a torture. I did, of course, derive acute enjoyment from it, but this enjoyment was at the cost of torture.
I don’t even know what I’m writing, I have no idea, I don’t know anything, and I’m not reading over it, and I’m not correcting my style, and I’m writing just for the sake of writing, just for the sake of writing more to you…
My precious, my darling, my dearest!
In a morbid condition of the brain, dreams often have a singular actuality, vividness, and extraordinary semblance of reality.
إنني أثرثر كثيراً . . ولأنني أكثر الكلام لا أعمل شيئاً . . أو على الأصح إنني أثرثر لافتقاري إلى العمل