And she said 'hi'.

Oh hi, she said by looking at the mirror. To herself.
Every morning she was trying to say hi to him by walking by near of his work. She was imagining, the noises will stop and the romantic music will start and everything will be like the movies. But as every day she knew that she was going to walk without saying anything.

She combed her hair, thought about having a make up but why if she's gonna say 'hi' to him? She was not one of those girls who's having makeup for herself. She was disliking herself in every way. Suddenly remembered what they say. 'If you love yourself, people will love you too'. Thought it can't be true. Even her father had left her. Why would anybody else care?

She walked with her sneakers to outside to catch the next ferry. It was a gloomy day where there's a little wind that comes to her hair and make her feel like she's main character of her movie. She was walking and walking and walking..
And she stopped.

She looked at him through the window, how beautiful he was. Smiling to everyone who's buying donuts from him. She was feeling his smell through all the way. It must have been something with roses. Was it normal to feel something like that to someone that you don't know? She could have gone in, but what if she says something stupid and lose all of her chance? She was just staring at him. Imagining herself in his arms. How warm it would be. Imagining every movies that they'd watch under the blanket. Breakfasts that they'd have together. Maybe one day even they'd take a ferry together. And maybe one day he'd say to her 'i love you'. Would it be possible for him to love her, she thought? She felt crazy. Heard from so far the ferry's horn. She realized she can't be late one more time for staring him. She knew the next day she'd stare him again. Said 'bye love' inside. Ran to the ferry.

Nobody understood his sadness that day. Why was she staring at him but not come into the shop once? He was ready, his words were ready. By watching her every day running to ferry through his window, was it possible for him to run after her? Even if she doesn't answer, was it possible to just smell her once? Was she really reminding to everyone that relaxed feeling after rain or was it just really him? He was thinking not to open the shop the next day. He was in endless misery. Somehow he was feeling like he has to end this or life wouldn't be same again.

She woke up earlier than usual just to see him more. Felt like she has to put some nice clothes, who knows maybe this time she had courage to go into the shop. She was feeling like it today. She put on the nicest lipstick she could have. She said hi to the mirror again. Smiled and said again. Took her scarf and ran to the outside. This time she was ready, she was ready to look at his eyes. Until the time that she was 'closed' sign on the shop. She stared the window for a while. What would it even mean? Did she lose him forever? She'd never hear his voice? Couldn't stop the tears. She was walking to the ferry with the tears on her cheek. Cleaned her lipstick with her hand. She paid for the ticket and took her usual place on the ferry. While watching the sea, the only thing she was believing that, she lost her hope with him. Why she just didn't say hi to him?

She heard a voice in that second that says 'i was expecting you'. She felt like it was the best voice of she has ever heard in her life. Turned her back and saw him. Tried to clean her tears. She said 'hi, where were you this morning?'..

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