Goodbye Grandpa!!

This post was very tough for me to write. I'm currently filled with emotions most of them are not happy. yesterday exactly by this time a phone call changed my mind completely. My happiness has been shattered into pieces. Hearing the other side the crackling voice of my Mom faintly saying "your grandpa passed away just now" broken my heart into a million pieces. I expected this when he fell on steps on 22nd Dec last year but this is too soon. Apparently, when a diabetic patient gets into trouble and especially when he is so old almost near to 90 years, there is nothing more you can expect for him to cure but to pray to God to relieve him from his pain soon than bed ridden condition for months. My grandma is also old and imagine the trauma she has to go through when it comes to taking care of sick elderly person 11 years older to her. Grandpa suffered only for 20 days before he said Goodbye to all and he was such a kind soul not to make his wife or daughter (My mom) suffer for longer time.

My grandpa is my life's biggest hero. If my dad was my one eye and grandpa is the other one. When dad could afford to pay only my college fees, Grandpa is the one who sponsored for my text books, notes and all the xerox scanning stuff. Without them, what is the use of just a tuition fee. He is the only reason why my education was never interrupted. He took care of me and my brother as if we were his kids and not grand kids. He always felt obligated and I cannot tell him enough thank you till eternity. I will be always grateful for everything he did to us. He was a very strong person, faced all the struggles alone with his wife and never expected anything in return. He always felt proud of me and brother. Grandpa's house was the only vacation we used to take because we are not financially blessed people to visit several locations for our holidays which I'm now thankful because I get to know more about these wonderful souls called "grandparents". He always used to keep some money in an open bowl for us to take some from it to buy any snacks or so. He never used to say no for anything we ask for.

I'm actually happy on one hand because my grandpa led a full life. He saw his grand kids and also their kids and he almost reached his century, the given time for everyone on earth. It is a special bond that I have with him that I could never explain in anyway. I just want to tell him one thing "Goodbye grandpa. I miss you so freaking much. I will always miss you. I cannot for a millionth time can thank you enough for what you have done to me and brother. If it is not for you, the whole world wouldn't know me as the person that I'm today. I'd have been a no-man or a lame loser. You made be bold, wise and strong. It is all on you grandpa. I love you. I love you. I love you a lot. THANK YOU VERY MUCH... if there is more births written to me in this world, I'd ask for only you as my grandpa. you can never be replaced by anyone whatsoever. I can't........"

Bye grandpa, you know I'm crying a river with a straight face. I can't help it. You made me bold. You did.

Photo: That's my grandpa with my daughter. I took that pic in 2012 when daughter was just 6 months old. It is one of the best memories I have with him.