I'm 27 years old and all my life I live with alcoholics!

Hello! I'm 27 years old and all my life I am surrounded by alcoholics. The trouble is that in addition to that surrounding drinking - they're still very violent. My grandmother, in my childhood rushed at me with a knife. Several times in my life I've seen people with delirium tremens.

My psyche as a child was very hurt by these antics, and so sometimes I'm very nervous. I am sometimes quick to anger.
Many believe that if parents drink, then the baby will go on their way. But I'm 10 years in sports. Now I have a good relationship with grandma, I forgave her for everything. Strength and health to drink alcohol it does not. Last year she had a stroke. Almost six months she couldn't walk, I cared for her. Thought she was going to die, honestly, as a kid, I dreamed about it. But seeing her helpless and ill - forgave her everything.

Will never drink, I'll be a good mom and wife, and even if it is hard, will never break!