Hopeful for an Awesome Year

Just hours into the new year and I'm already feeling older.  I don't like feeling older;  I mean I'm too young to feel this way.  When I was a kid,  I always looked forward to the new year. Mostly because in my family it's another day we gorge ourselves with lots of food and drinks just like we did on Christmas day. 

It has always been fun with the family tradition of taking gifts to my grandma,  sharing stuff to old women in my village and basically an all you can eat buffet service for everyone interested. 

The abundance of things or maybe just my naivity as a kid made things so easy.  Some of us wish we could return to the days when we only had to worry about when mom will finish cooking or if we missed the latest episode of "Tom and Jerry". It always seemed great not having responsibilities,  no job to go to or rent to pay but then I would consider that stagnation. 

These days things have become different,  a bit depressing than things were when we were kids. Now it's just the nuclear family members and a few others eating and drinking. Parents complaining of nonpayment of salaries by the state government, unemployment for one or two siblings,  Nonpayment of salary and being underpaid for myself. 

Now it's all about complaints. Little cousins showing their busted phones or saying how they are so broke and there's just nothing you can do but say it will get better. 

We all believe it will get better but the truth is that it will get better for some,  for others it will be virtually the same and for the unlucky ones,  it will just go downhill. 

I would like to believe that it will get better 'cause I've seen good signs, actual evidence that it's already getting better not just for me but for my sibling too.

Over the last couple of years, I've become so numb to the craziness of that new year factor.  The one that makes people try to be different (even if it's for a few days). The new year resolutions and proclamations of goodness and all of that.  This year I think I have a reason to really be crazy about making it into another year. 

I'm alive for one. My family happier than we've been in a while despite the sucky situation around us and in the country as a whole. Grateful for friends (new and old). I'm not sad about the heart breaks received but sorry for the one dealt to others.

My point is,  it just has to be an awesome year. I won't accept less. 

To those I haven't wished happy new year,  I wish the best of everything this year.