Love Is Patience
On that day still remembered clearly in my mind, there is a level brother who asks acquaintance through whatsapp so funny alibinya hijacked friends yaudah dong I'm not chat anymore haha his name is sure girl jaim is gilaa. Over the course of the day in the chat again tuh ya I answered "dibajak lagi mas? Haha "he does not answer haha yes already chat constantly. If not chat so always say "never ever chat yes"
He's cool, cool, introvert really, Full mystery just the same as him, mystery mystery like kayak aja ya haha. The more I feel the more I feel, I fall in love with him, he is cold and full of mystery. Still remembered clearly also first we ngedate, ceilahh ngedate a tradition think if again PDKT wkwk, ngedatenya eat aja nyobain new café so fitting new sampe eager to eat ehhh power outage cielahhh more romantic aja nih in love candle same mas-masnya haha. Long talk about college how the hell about the former also so haha, yahh already more night we decide to go home. He buntutin me up the road that I know, ciee attention yes although cold haha.
Gradually this feeling deepens, already have the fear to lose it when emang who I try haha. I dare to declare that I like him if I love him, he's a response, but yes he still seems to be cold full of puzzles. One day gilaa I made the more flying I sing the song "roulette I'm in love" know it, what the girl who greed ngefly when singed it haha.
Right on 19 novembe 2016 maybe it's practically happy day I finally shot at him so cieee so happy, sempet speechless when he realin his feelings. I accept him, and on that day I became his girlfriend. That's early in the morning, so we make a morning appointment for cfd an in the city park. We meet there breakfast nyari, chatting and he is still speechless if we invented haha. But in the middle of our chat there is a thing that I feel heartache, anger, try to imagine what you guys do if your boyfriend still keep a photo of the former who he said had 3 years of courtship. Gilaaa at that moment I was so strong, and in the end I asked him the same thing.
"Why are you still nyimpen, still love ya?"
"He's a tough ex-wife with so many memories, because he's the longest one."
"Why not wait aja?"
"Not have to wait, dijadiin candidate wrote"
Oh my god I'm getting here strong-ass to hear the sentence like that dream what try to semalem, yesterday was shot but the morning heard that sentence. Whether he's talking like a joke is not just him and god knows, okay I try to understand emang move on takes time I was not angry and did not even tell him to throw away his picture. The day has passed and I try to forget it but sometimes still remember clearly his words.
A month has been a relationship that we live full of stories of love and grief, the most I like is when I was invited to walk on the beach and see the romantic sunset really huh tuh haha, walk around the area there in love where high school. But it all melt into something that is wrong and what happens everything becomes different when I and he wants to meet because it is quite long we do not meet after I accident, the meeting failed because he was a constraint when I've been waiting at a café for almost 3 hours an alone. The obstacles are the rain and the bike strike okay I'm not a problem I really know his sacrifice to meet me and he's afraid I'm embarrassed if you meet him with soaking wet. But it's late afternoon I'm not like any other woman who can go home at night anytime, so I can not nemenin you in the moment you want to meet that night. I went home in rain, too, as soon as I got home I got the short message, and then I called him up to 10 times, but I broke up again because he was still in the boardinghouse.
Less than a day a new year and I have not been able to hear him for a day, no warm morning greeting as usual, no affectionate sayings. And whoaaa already turn of the year we are also not intense to chat hey busy project okay I'm not a problem. Over time and still the same I never know what's wrong so he's like this, my questions are never answered.
Just in 2 months our relationship no longer romantic words like a month ago, I ucapin right that day but he just said a day later. Pain sih but patient aja God not sleep, but the longer we like never have a dichat only 2 days once already like luluran really, when it's too tighthearted this somehow the word came. Yes he said "what do you want ebut?" He did not answer yes what ndak but he said "what the hell am I busy a lot I think and I ngeluanginnya in the game" okay this time I have more patience I was defeated by the game.
I understand the way I ngechat not let him wrote aja nyari but how kangennya try almost 2 months not meet, not phone. He always apologized, but he again that nyakitin. Okay not papa so unfortunately I'm with you, who knows how long will you be back like the first seprti first I know? Is the former always beautiful? I'm sorry I can never be the way you want but somehow this heart wants to always fight despite struggling alone. Many people have told me to leave you, but I have not been able to do so. I hope you are always fine. I love you more than you know
