Today I Sleep
I remember the time when I was in a major depression, I wanted to end my life. I couldn't stand the pain. I was hoping that when I sleep I wouldn't be able to wake up at all. The feeling of constantly in great pain and emptiness at the same time is an excruciating feeling.
This poem summarizes what I wanted to do at the time.
I see angry gloomy skies and black clouds in heaps,
I stare in comfort of them all
As they hurriedly complained of a stormy rainfall.
Still they don't know the secrets that I keep,
The voices made me never to see laughter for sometime,
Heart has always been empty and less sublime.
Pain is more than ocean's deep.
Drowned already but keeping awake,
Clock is ticking thinking less is at stake.
I am only an inch step to leap,
I look at the abyss and height below,
Can't wait to free fall and eventually go.
Only making my plan stall,
For today and forever I sleep,
And will finally never ever weep.
Thanks to the prayers and support of friends and family I was able to overcome. The good part is that I became stronger and have widened my understanding about myself. But the sad part is not everybody is able to defeat depression and a lot of people are still struggling till now. Sometimes it recurs; it comes back again at a point in a person's life. Extra understanding, support and awareness is needed to battle this ongoing illness.
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Thank you for sharing !
Thanks for reading as well! :)
you are lucky to still have family and friends who were very supportive of you, out there are still many people living alone without anyone's support
Indeed I am so blessed, unfortunate really for those who battle it alone. Thanks for reading! :)
It is unfortunate and I don't understand how people can be so harsh.
There are other people too who do understand, we just have to make most out of life. :)
Yes, life is what we make it. Well, most of the time.
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Hello @shellany, nice to meet you here with your interesting post. I follow you right now. Regard from Aceh, Indonesia.
Thank you @bahagia-arbi, nice meeting you too! :)
very nice poem amiga :) today I sleep so that when I wake up tomorrow i feel my mind is fresh
Hahaha, dapat lang fresh na fresh gurl! :)
Depression is a serious medical problem and must be treated with professional help and family support.
I am glad you've overcome your depression @shellany
It wasn't easy @cryptopie , it was a year long struggle. I vowed never to let it happen again, love saved me. :)
I feel like that now. I'm glad you are out of that and hope you never feel that way again.
You're not alone, just continue to be strong and think that this time is your most challenging yet. You have encountered challenges before and overcame them, how much more now? Hang in there... it won't be easy but in the end it will be worth it, this is a test of your endurance in life @mikej. :)
Thank you @shellany!