Awakening Is Always Crude

I was checking my email last night and I got this email from a close friend, about her going through a turning point in life. The subject line was Crude Awakening.
I thought I would share my response to her email.

“Do you think that I count the days? There is only one day left, always starting over: it is given to us at dawn and taken away from us at dusk.”
― Jean-Paul Sartre

You being Blacklisted? Never Homie.
You're always in my heart and in my thoughts, whatever fucking happens.
I am always here, even when I'm not. Never doubt that.

I hold on to the feeling of you and me chasing each other in our dreams, life after life and death upon death. Now I know this is all projection, and some narrative we tell each other, but thats all of life too. So fuck it, I still want to hold on to you and there is nothing you can do about it.

But back to the discussion at hand, right!?!?!

Awakening is always Crude.
Because Cosmic Love is ABSOLUTELY Ruthless,
it simply doesn't give a FUCK,
it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not
or even fucking listening,

From the I Ching:
After a time of Decay comes the turning point. The powerful light that has been banished returns. There is movement, but it is not brought about by force...The movement is natural, arising spontaneously. For this reason the transformation of old becomes easy. The old is discarded and the new is introduced. Both measures accord with time; therefore no harm results.

Let go and dance with the flow,
I know, I know, easier said than done
Everything I say here is a lie,
at some level, but so is everything
in other words, all words and most things we think
is utter bullshit, because anything that you put in
words is not experience, is not the experiment
It's a representation -- a misrepresentation

So, Don't get caught with a fixed philosophy, a set
of safe beliefs, a particular way of Life.

Experiment~! With life, with love.

Run an exploration of the real and the true degrees of freedom
of life, of love, of the human condition, inside self and in one's style of life

Move! Into new spaces beyond one's present concepts of possible/probable/certain real spaces.

Far vaster than I know are the innermost/outermost realities.

Far more interesting than I now feel are the deeps of the space, the beyond within, the infinite without.

Love and loving are basic
Hostility is redundant
Fear is non-sense

So let go and forgive the ones you love
for they know not what they do
do on to them, as you wish is done to you

Freedom is what we do with what is done to us
We are condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world
we are responsible for everything we do
whether we realize it or not

It is up to you to give life a meaning

Everything has been figured out, except how to live...

(this is what happens when you read too much John C Lilly and Jean-Paul Sartre)