I have had a wonderful day today of catharsis. Woke up earlier than usual after a night of poor sleep. Had coffee and breakfast then began creating this music, which I thought would be a beat of some sort. I simply couldn't bring myself to add anything extra to this music because it was complete as it was. I've already accomplished the tasks I set out for myself to do today. It was a fluid and easy day of life with exactly the right amount of things to occupy my time with. For once, I will take the night off tonight and enjoy video games or videos on youtube. I completed the Murakami book today, and I absolutely must read more of his work. Highest recommendations.

I've been thinking about what life will be like with money, and it's exciting me to think I'll be able to afford some of the amazing musical equipment I've been longing to have. Also, as a person who love to play video games, I am excited about the possibility of getting a 4K TV and playing the games coming out in 2019. Seriously, 2019 may be the best year for game releases yet! I'm excited to get my hands on Anthem and the Division II, among others.

I have been formulating the direction I wish to focus energy and time on for the remainder of this year as well as the next few years, and I've come up with three tenants to hold too. They are 1) create and release music with a mission/purpose of raising consciousness and faith. 2) create and sell products to help people cope with the future. 3)build a platform that allows people easy access to the latest and greatest.

I am thankful for this venture in my life. I'm thankful for the supportive loved ones that have helped me with the reality of where I am in life and the sacrifices I've made to be building toward my dreams. I'm grateful for the motivation to continue pushing forward with vigor and enthusiasm every day. I'm beginning to lose the will to hold on to the illusions I've created for myself because I am seeing the massive amount of energy it takes to keep the illusions alive. I am reconnecting with the love that I am, and it is absolutely freeing. I look forward to the day when the world sees existence for what it is in reality. I love you, and I love the time we get to spend together every day. It warms my heart to have found this place, and it came exactly when it should've in my life.

I will begin writing again soon. I'm thinking some fiction with words will be a fun time, so why not?

https://soundcloud.com/rallenj/waking-stasis-ambient-014