The last knights supper
Getting creative with fried potatoes, i think we have today's post (apostrophe or not?) so without further ado :
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20190502 06:03 CET I just had a nightmarish idea listening to someone going on about gravitons - wondering how old the cast was i googled it and turns out gravitons (like 95% of reality) have not been proven to exist "due to a mathematical problem" ... for a science that puts rovers on mars there sure is a lot of wishful thinking involved ...
i suppose Newton at the core doesn't leave too much to the imagination and that's why they could make it to the moon in the first place ... no particles involved other than everywhere
As i keep saying in a mathematical sense i understand Einstein to say that all you need to move beyond the speed of light is infinite energy i just read the part on "masless" which means it travels at the speed of light - like a foton ... HOWEVER, what if there's something like "negative mass" , im talking mathematically speaking ofcourse ... but , unlike uncle A. im not a mathmatician (yea turns out he wasnt a physicist at all) so id have to go through great lengths to have my voice accepted since all of them mathematicians ARE mathematicians, right?
SO, WHAT IF
something had "negative" mass ? mathematically speaking ... ?
what does that do to your universe? my first idea is physics would be in deep shit as it already needs to religiously believe in dark matter to fill in 95% of the dots, add negative mass to that ? ... mathematically speaking, then what's left of the universe?
ah well, the dude ends with like "even Einstein would be dazzled (by the marvels of the universe" but i think that's a given. I think was dazzled all the time, even if his little Schoppenhauer wasn't dead at all as the stereotype would have people believe when it comes to ultrageeks, i think he was dazzled ALL the time by EVERYTHING seeing the world in a VERY different way, i think he must have seen like rays and vectors everwyhere at times no matter what he looked at, that's why he was so obsessed with it, and combined with his alien brainpower AND imagination thats what partly made him Einstein ...
i do , to quote Grant Cardone there "be obsessed or be average" ...
well physics IS fascinating, right ? im a living conscious thing, i have the urge to understand in order to improve my chances at survival, same like any worm i guess , but so is metafysics, i wont easily get tired of interrogating a scholar on religion just as well , we're all trying to understand - the way to fill that in ? I think the fact that its not the same is a good thing, diversity seems to be a requirement for evolution over devolution or extinction on all levels
careful or i start on the metaverse and how everything is an entity to which newtons laws apply
its a bit too early in the morning for that, late for me as im up since
think .. .last noon ?
o no i slept for an hour , some days that goes JUST FINE ... it used to go all the time , but most of the days lately i could like sleep for 18 hours if i let myself go, some doc gave me efexor once, the only thing that seemed to do was make me feel easy about sleeping 18 hours ... ??!?
and then my desktop jumps to a television beauty, i cant describe it better its like clasically accepted, could go on tv to present a popular program just ike that ...
i LOVE beauty, beauty is great ... it also exists on many levels as do all things in the metaverse , i think unix shell script is beautiful too , but i dont wanna stick my dick in it, right (see that mixup in language, right ? HOW IS THAT, ... yea tell me "how is that .. a problem ? its just words, and ture and expressive ones for that matter")
I mean you can't just go like , accuse someone of being beautiful - you dont like , i mean if you get a super-geek or a genius artist will you blame them for being born with a brain and using it ? No , you won't, .. so if you get a supermodel , would you blame them for being born with a superbody AND USING IT ?
THATS ABSURD ... and if you do i think you're missing out a lot ... im not exactly George BradClooneyPitt either but it never stopped me ... god bless the models ... they're like natures works of art, what the hell is wrong with that ?
how do you go from gravitons to supermodels ?
maybe you just have to be me, my little schoppenhauer certainly aint dead yet either ... and i doubt i'll ever write a thesis that gets us to proxima centauri in my lifetime, im just too multiclass according to the Gygax bible, i used so many references to about everything at once 20 times a sentence no one understands me and
i'm damaged goods ...
and ... i just saw the beauty in my own program without even knowing it was there already .. if i had planned that i would have used two different tiles for in and exit , level up and down , that was my first idea i already have two blanks in the map but now i got this JSON thing i came up with because the tiled put more data in it than i wanted to handle (its not an arcade game after all i have no clue how large it will grow) i dont need that, i can just use the same thing linking coords - every blank counts as a pitfall across the whole game, walls bump , now i just need to TILE -ed whatever "dafuk" i want and it will do what its supposed to do, add whatever mapevent , link it to a number and
that usually ends up after 10 minutes like OOh bug ... its taking shape, it usually dont end up like ooh bug , it ends up like i can do that in less and THEN it ends up like ooh bug
beauty .... such a beautiful thing
this has been written over the course of about 40 minutes by now ...
if curiosity killed the cat science would be dead, so would religion i suppose ... the shamen of old were the first to give explanations on the workings of existence to *the people* , its all been a search from the start, if you think deep enough you'd start thinking the big bang felt lonely so it decided to explore ... or what "the singularity" felt lonely so it decided to big bang ... i see my cat in kitty heaven there, its like his favourite spot, its were they all gathered on top of each other, the corner of what i call "the greenhouse" in the living room , probably my mothers idea as she needs the light as much as i need the darkness - makes me sound like a basement nurd again ... hard to explain i left at 21 without a cent in my pocket and a 6 month contract
AT TUPPERWARE !
and had about as many lives as a cat might or at least a few of those, 2 years of true street-side, but the other 44 dont seem to count the moment i mention that
watching him lie there, belly up under the glass, protected from all sides (safety glass) under the sky , open on all sides at the same time
its beautiful
hey ... DID SOMEONE SPIKE THAT TAPWATER AGAIN? i got like some Shulgin in my blood or something wtf ...?!?
no, my cat is always beautiful ofcourse, he's the only thing left in my life i CHOSE to be responsible for
something that also seems hard to explain to "have-to" and "must"-people
five minutes later ... it strikes : i cant just use the coords linked as is but it strikes right away
//$ variable[map][x][y]=array(map,x,y) doesn't need a fourth, it just needs
//$ variable[map][x][y]=array(+orminusxmaplevels,x,y) and a small adaptation, if all my days were like this again i could call myself productive after a year
and that showed me a flaw in the way this blogtab is done ...
over an hour ... after a short but daunting journey from the living room to the garage to have a cigarette, yes im smoking again after .. i cant remember i never start or stop on purpose, i'm an ill-behaved particle so i dont understand why the universe doesnt seem to like me , im unpredictable , you say ?
im not so sure about that, you just come at me with your oodles of data collected from normal people
i realise, the company i like to keep - if i gathered all of it , from IRL ot URL in one room, it would probably be like a manson family party after a few hours as that would not compute,
you're supposed to pick a side
thats SO bipolar ... this or that ... , i think i'll just use this as todays post
not done yet? i dont know who's talking now ... OFCOURSE PLATO WAS RIGHT, Plato was always right ... plato's cave lies at the core of my perception, together with entropy versus gravity creating the only perceivable perpetuum mobile at cosmic level
it does, all things fall to a state of rest but the universe wont let them, ... survival instinct, if it did all things would end
Plato was always right, maybe because he used to keep weird company, lol (i often get misunderstood when i start quoting people , i certainly dont consider myself to be an ancient greek, after all i KNOW i dont know shit)
not even Jack Fucking, as some other dude claimed in a bit of a different fashion, to be the wisest of them all i think i'm more perceive a wiseguy half the time,
prozaic ?
you're missing the rythm then (o dear...)
Plato knew VIOLENCE ... first hand, as a wrestler, and i can only imagine ancient greek wrestle matches didnt bother much with brain damage and padded gloves either, yet still he's growing close to the age of a prophet or a son of god ... and the cave, well
if anything teaches the meaning of perception ... every kindergarten should have its own version of Platos teachings, just like every kindergarten should have its own version of revolution and of evolution
no matter how that would be interpreted - schools should be there to put questions in childrens head, not answers (am i a heretic again?), if they're not they risk society growing stale as everyone will be more prone to accepting the facts as taught as it is safer in the group, even subculture is proof of that, the idea you reject while you gather in a group that wears, bears, talks and walks the same ... or maybe that's a marketing ploy
phew ... these fingers ....
yea, these fingers ..., my middle ones seem to have a cramp and its been a while since ive seen your wife (no one ever likes that joke ..)
you always say you like reading .... ?
a yea, i was gonna self-promote one of my songs every time ...
Well i dont have one a day for that so those might repeat sometimes, but that's like less than you would have on a popular radio station, let's see
Little man from Belgium ... there might be sample inthere from a little man from Belgium somewhere , same as last time, mid 1990s , made with Tritons fast tracker, early days - that thing was really a joy to work with its like op-coding music, lol
and
someone elses ?
how about
My Judas by Audio Silence ? ... we covered the
topic of girlfriends and women already ... it hit me in the chest right away, as songs should when you like them ...
on my lets play favourites list , i cant quite place it but i think thats a good thing, if i had to id try to push it somewhere between Belly and PJ Harvey ... dont mind if you stream them a few times, if you like you can just stream them from their own feed without using my playlist - at least give it a listen or you wont know what it is :p
its CHOON, its free, you get the emotion and they get the satisfaction by just listening to , a grand idea ... thanks @darsico for mentioning that bit of the interworld, its been a nice journey overthere since
allright then ...
...
still not done ?
yea you could say that , i think the drive to understand is essential for consciousness, but maybe not necessarily for awareness , and yes i do think that's two different things , some people might define it the other way around but i also feel words get in the way of communication, imagine
imagine
communicating without words, like both the mayans AND the hindus claimed to happen , the calender and the satya yuga - all from the dreamworld - im full of everything i ever heard and read , they both herald it "the end of corruption" and it makes sense as its gonna be hard to conceal a thoughts true intentions wheres words are often ambiguous in meaning or intent
i dont think its the time and i dont think i have the RC for that, and i wouldnt want the gods to punish me for stealing their fire and sharing it
what is conscious or aware ?
a planet moves but has no choice, a pebble in a river moves but has no choice ... it all leads of the illusion of free will but if the laws of nature are the laws of physics then everything since the big bang is nothing but causality
it could simply just be , cause has no need to have a reason ... ?
effect needs a cause but has no need for reason
more like it
mmmh, you're right im just like a kid, i never made the testament of my youth
growing up is a trap as Odilon would agree on youtube - i can still talk to the cat - its sad flixxo didnt put up a global site and stuck to its own client in a way - it makes it hard to link stuff
maybe they did by now and i missed it
allow me to resurrect the alphabet - ... who came up with that ?
its the greeks again man, they're responsible for like everything you call modern society, even the illusion of democracy, although they were better at that
current day id say at best you get a particracy where you vote on a face that keeps a party in power, i mean
after years they suddenly want me to vote again so i go like OKAY
julia reda ...
turns out i live in belgium so i have to vote on belgians in the european election but i find none that i wanna ?
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