Wandering Thoughts 78 / Learning from your Inner child

From time to time, I like to take a look at my old content. More than an exercise on self-indulgence, I enjoy it because I can appreciate my current skill level and simultaneously strive for improvement.

This feeling is more intense when I look at my old youtube videos. I mean, extremely old. Remember, I started on Youtube back in 2009. Type "Libfall" on Youtube and be amazing at my ability to make you cringe.

I came a long way from my shy years and in the process managed to improve my English, my communication skills and especially my video editing and videography skills. If I could show my younger self the type of videos I'm doing now, I would be dumbfounded. But that's what happens when you spend years doing something you love.

You slowly get better. So slow that you only realized how far you improved when you take the time to look back.

Which makes me think: How will I feel when I look back to this point 10 years from now?

Yet, there's one thing I envy about my old self. How much fun I was having with the videos! How innocent and available I was to experiment different things. I wasn't worried about subscribers or trying to please the youtube algorithm. I was simply creating.

The challenge now is combining the best of both worlds. Finding again that inner child free of concerns and merging it with my current skills. Becoming an adult child.