Feelings

Sometimes things don't feel right. Sometimes they don't go my way. But I try not to let all of that get in my way. My day gets worse I feel like sleeping. My life feels different I can feel it weeping. Sometimes you just want someone to listen, you want them to care. But no matter how hard you try, you just can't quite seem to get there. You say you get me, you say you understand... But just admit it and say aloud nobody will ever see.
They will never stare down the same hallway, they will never walk down the same aisle. My life is so complicated I wish I could disappear for a while. The tile on the wall falls off piece by piece, the crease in my pillow won't let me sleep. I stay up all night, I toss and turn. My mind keeps wondering what I have learned.. Can I keep walking can I keep talking...my lips are getting chapped its like I've lost my voice.
My bones are breaking my mind already lost go ahead and ask the cost.... My hands are as heavy as stone... My eyes won't blink.
I'm just running in circles around this skating rink. Its like I'm on ice, I have no shoes, my bare feet are hurting, I can't quite get the wording. I want you to understand, I want you to see, i want you to stop following me. I don't want to be here. I don't want to be alone yet.. my sadness and anger is all I find at home. I scream and yell to everyone I meet. Yet their ears are plugged and their eyes cannot see, im crying for help im sobbing bad. but all I can do is pretend and just throw away the key and ill always be sad.