Why do I love him so much?

Every minute of every day I have this feeling of contentment within me because I know I have found my soulmate. Every time I look at him I know I love him with every cell of my body and I see the same love in his eyes towards me. We match together perfectly, we understand each other without words just by looking in each other’s eyes.

I was in love with boys and men many times before, but I never knew what love was until I met him. Our relationship wasn’t like this right from the beginning, it wasn’t love at first sight, and I didn’t know from the first minute that we’d be together forever. None of that romantic stuff. I am too much of a realist for any of that and I only believe in what I see. I actually swore off relationships and decided to only have short term ‘encounters’ with guys just before I met him. My inability to have a meaningful relationship was partly my fault too, I was damaged goods by my past relationships, too afraid to connect too much with anyone, but mostly it was because I hadn’t met my soulmate yet.

At the beginning I thought it would be the same with him, we would start arguing after a few months and he’d probably get tired from traveling to see me on weekends. But he kept coming to see me every chance he got. Soon enough the ‘pink clouds’ syndrome came. I get the ‘pink clouds’ syndrome at the beginning of a relationship, when I start falling for the guy and I feel like he is the perfect one, we get on really well and we enjoy each other’s company. From experience I knew that the ‘pink clouds’ will be gone soon and I’ll find something I don’t like about him, he’ll find something weird about me and then we’ll be arguing. But this moment just wasn’t coming and the pink clouds stayed. I started to realize that this is not just a relationship, this was going to be the real deal, the most special thing that has ever happened to me and will ever happen in my life.

Since then those ‘pink clouds’ have grown into something much better and stronger. We’ve been together for more than 3 years and I can’t imagine ever getting bored of being with him. We love every minute together and I miss him when we’re apart, even if he just has to stay at work a little longer. I enjoy his kisses more and more every day, his every touch is electrifying and I feel the happiest when he hugs me. He tells me every day that I am his soulmate and the love of his life and I tell him the same. There is complete trust between us, we tell each other everything there is to tell. I know he would never do anything to hurt me, and we can only be happy and content if both of us are happy. I couldn’t ever imagine life without him.

My first marriage ended 10 years ago and I was set on never getting married again after that disaster and 5 years of suffering. But then in this relationship the time came when we knew that we were so much more than ‘girlfriend and boyfriend’, those two labels just didn’t do justice to what we were to each other. My opinion about marriage quickly changed to it’s opposite and I knew I wanted to be his wife and to be able to call him my husband. I was the happiest girl in the world when one evening, sitting on the beach and looking at the sunset he asked me to marry him. Our wedding was 3 months ago today on the beach in Cyprus and it was the most beautiful day in my life. I love to relive that day and play it in my mind like a movie.

I wish you all to find your soulmate and be happy with them. Don't give up, they are out there!